| My Shittiest Birthday | for everyone |
It's family, and the adage or saying "You can choose your friends but never your family" - seems hauntingly familiar. It's always been and I've never learned, I've never grown callous. If this is the way to show affection, damn my family should win first prize for their portrayal.
By saying "family" - I'm not limiting to my parents, my siblings - but also my aunts - everyone that surrounds me.
Im not looking for praise, not even attention. Im just looking for appreciation. A simple "thank you" should do.
And what do I get? I always fell short of everyone's expectations, Im not giving much. Im selfish. Im weird, Im this, should be this. We've done this, you should do this. Everyone is testing my patience, everyone is hurting, Im hurting... you happy?
To tell you the truth I am not living in luxury, Im living within my limit. I dont suffer so much money trouble because I know my expenses, I budget, Im earning, Im spending on things that I need.
I get sick and nobody cares for me but myself, I dont even know why your comments matter, maybe there is some truth behind those words, but can you give me some leeway, it's my damn birthday!
A simple thank you should do.
By saying "family" - I'm not limiting to my parents, my siblings - but also my aunts - everyone that surrounds me.
Im not looking for praise, not even attention. Im just looking for appreciation. A simple "thank you" should do.
And what do I get? I always fell short of everyone's expectations, Im not giving much. Im selfish. Im weird, Im this, should be this. We've done this, you should do this. Everyone is testing my patience, everyone is hurting, Im hurting... you happy?
To tell you the truth I am not living in luxury, Im living within my limit. I dont suffer so much money trouble because I know my expenses, I budget, Im earning, Im spending on things that I need.
I get sick and nobody cares for me but myself, I dont even know why your comments matter, maybe there is some truth behind those words, but can you give me some leeway, it's my damn birthday!
A simple thank you should do.
| 27 | for everyone |
Today Im turning 27 (Oct. 20), 10 years since highschool, 6 years since college, 5 years working.
The younger version of me would have never guessed what Im doing with my life or how I turned out to be. When I was in my teens and early twenties I always thought that I will be having a family of my own when I reach 25 (which many of my friends knew). But here I am 2 years after the 'deadline' still single, not committed and in the wild so to speak.
Im always finding ways to improve myself (maybe not physically...), I try not to be bounded in my comfort zone, I try to always think out of the box, do adventures and experience life, seeing new places and meeting new friends.And yet I always find myself thinking, am I a good son? The answer is maybe, it is a hard question to answer and can only be answered when Im dead, maybe in my eulogy.
As I have written a year ago, my saddest birthday, now that I'm 27 - no more celebration (the food, party stuff). Starting with this birthday I will go to church and thank the lord for giving me another year to grow, maybe treat myself a good lunch or dinner, reply to those who will greet me and that's it, I will call it a day. I have other things in mind - but it is exclusively void of any celebration with many people.
And yes, I am not that scared compared to way back then when I was 25 and I asked myself what will I be, right now Im pretty confident that I can be something of some use soon. I will not rush life, but take it a step at a time. As I am getting older (more mature?) I realize that life is a one pass cannot-be-rewound event, so I have to carefully live as what I'd like to live to minimize regrets.
I would like to grab this opportunity to thank those who remembered. :D
The younger version of me would have never guessed what Im doing with my life or how I turned out to be. When I was in my teens and early twenties I always thought that I will be having a family of my own when I reach 25 (which many of my friends knew). But here I am 2 years after the 'deadline' still single, not committed and in the wild so to speak.
Im always finding ways to improve myself (maybe not physically...), I try not to be bounded in my comfort zone, I try to always think out of the box, do adventures and experience life, seeing new places and meeting new friends.And yet I always find myself thinking, am I a good son? The answer is maybe, it is a hard question to answer and can only be answered when Im dead, maybe in my eulogy.
As I have written a year ago, my saddest birthday, now that I'm 27 - no more celebration (the food, party stuff). Starting with this birthday I will go to church and thank the lord for giving me another year to grow, maybe treat myself a good lunch or dinner, reply to those who will greet me and that's it, I will call it a day. I have other things in mind - but it is exclusively void of any celebration with many people.
And yes, I am not that scared compared to way back then when I was 25 and I asked myself what will I be, right now Im pretty confident that I can be something of some use soon. I will not rush life, but take it a step at a time. As I am getting older (more mature?) I realize that life is a one pass cannot-be-rewound event, so I have to carefully live as what I'd like to live to minimize regrets.
I would like to grab this opportunity to thank those who remembered. :D
| The Birthday Blog 10202010 | for everyone |
Before I start this year, you maybe interested to read last year's birthday blog here: http://dwightto.blogspot.com/2009/10/27.html
So first things first, I've scrapped the how old (or young) I am from the title. Maybe its not about adding one to your years but adding a multitude of experiences to yourself which is important.
The next thing I realized is that this is the 3rd year that Im celebrating it with new officemates, 2 yrs ago it was with Ideyatech, last year with Playtech and now with NCR. Which is to say that I've been in 3 companies for the past 3 years! It's not like I'm job hopping, circumstances beyond my control is mainly the reason for such jumps. But I'm not complaining universe! I'm just stating a fact.
Aside from new work, studies are not progressing yet. Ive delayed to fulfill my masters in education because of financial matters. I may continue it next year if I have the chance, the time and the money.
Family is ok, though we are not anymore complete because my sister has left for Australia to get married and live there for good. But we welcomed a new member of our family, a new baby girl from my youngest sister. Aren't babies the cutest beings of all (and also smells good).
Even though I was laid off from work this year (my first ever) it's still a good year. I paid my insurance, bills, and most important of all gone to Bora! Yes the most popular island in the Philippines-checked!
Ahh,this fact just springs to mind, most of my batcmates in highschool and in college are either in a committed (and hopefully loving) relationship or married (or those states past marriage), or have babies. Im just totally happy for them for their courage to take on new roles and responsibility, kudos to them!
Celebration? I didn't treat my officemates because I am still shy and doesnt have that rapport to all of them save a few. At home, I asked my aunt to cook buttered chicken and sweet and sour pork for dinner. I also bought ice cream.
I also attended Epson's web team farewell party at Zao and met my previous bridge engineer to say my thanks in the years that I was working in Epson.
Well I guess that's it for now. Maybe next year the universe will cook up something good for me.
Enjoying my day, ahhh it's already night.
So first things first, I've scrapped the how old (or young) I am from the title. Maybe its not about adding one to your years but adding a multitude of experiences to yourself which is important.
The next thing I realized is that this is the 3rd year that Im celebrating it with new officemates, 2 yrs ago it was with Ideyatech, last year with Playtech and now with NCR. Which is to say that I've been in 3 companies for the past 3 years! It's not like I'm job hopping, circumstances beyond my control is mainly the reason for such jumps. But I'm not complaining universe! I'm just stating a fact.
Aside from new work, studies are not progressing yet. Ive delayed to fulfill my masters in education because of financial matters. I may continue it next year if I have the chance, the time and the money.
Family is ok, though we are not anymore complete because my sister has left for Australia to get married and live there for good. But we welcomed a new member of our family, a new baby girl from my youngest sister. Aren't babies the cutest beings of all (and also smells good).
Even though I was laid off from work this year (my first ever) it's still a good year. I paid my insurance, bills, and most important of all gone to Bora! Yes the most popular island in the Philippines-checked!
Ahh,this fact just springs to mind, most of my batcmates in highschool and in college are either in a committed (and hopefully loving) relationship or married (or those states past marriage), or have babies. Im just totally happy for them for their courage to take on new roles and responsibility, kudos to them!
Celebration? I didn't treat my officemates because I am still shy and doesnt have that rapport to all of them save a few. At home, I asked my aunt to cook buttered chicken and sweet and sour pork for dinner. I also bought ice cream.
I also attended Epson's web team farewell party at Zao and met my previous bridge engineer to say my thanks in the years that I was working in Epson.
Well I guess that's it for now. Maybe next year the universe will cook up something good for me.
Enjoying my day, ahhh it's already night.
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