I never tried to understand
Our situation just slide to disband
Cursing and yelling we did not do
Just an indifference of me towards you
Now that we have been apart
Not missing you is not a good start to tell you now
Cause that will only add the hurt I inflicted on you somehow
I do believe that someday, true friendship will bloom our way
A friendship that is not based on tragic love
Of lust, experiment and young years love
Until that day will come
We have to wait and experience other persons
In our lives and sometimes out
Because we should not lose hope in the promise of love
Year after year we get nearer to the finale
Anticipation builds and we prepare our sorries
Cause at the end, believing ours was a good story
Thursday, June 02, 2011
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
That
Sometimes we have to make difficult decisions. It's just a part of life to make one at least a dozen times, right? Who doesn't? I don't know one that didn't. Rich, poor, educated, street smarts - ALL of us had made one. And today I have to make one - a really difficult one.
Ok, not to tease or something, let's rewind a little, back a few uncertain years ago, when the world is just this beautiful place (at least a beautiful place in my memory) - simple, ignorant but blissful. The world when I was still on - my diapers (were diapers already in existence back then?) ok not that past please. A little forward in time, ok steady, a little more adjustment... to this particular time.
I was young, tall, not so dark, and definitely... never-mind. I was walking when suddenly I fell, on my knees, in the pavement of, wait a minute, a mall. You can just imagine my embarrassed face as I try to get up and seeing all those people's judgmental look. I can imagine cartoon character's dialog bubble over their heads with "Klutz", "Hahahaha...", "What happen?" labels dangling. So I fell, what's the big deal?
I went on straight to what I need to buy that day. A stuffed toy. For a friend. Ok for the "that" girl.
More memories are coming in while I'm writing this, on this rainy evening. Continuing...
So I went into the store, sorted through their merchandise, checking the size, color and "feel" but most importantly - the price. I just wanted to have the perfect stuff for a perfect price. Nah, I just don't have enough money back then (and until now, but I digress).
I have this nice little fluffy thing on my hand, and as I was walking towards the cashier I realized that I left my wallet (wait I don't have a wallet even before) - I mean I don't have enough money to buy it. Out of personal embarrassment and hoping that the sales lady did not notice me dropping out of the line, I quietly left the store.
But I still need to give something to "that" girl. It was her birthday and I have to give her something. We will be meeting at the mall about an hour that day and I just have to give her something. I tried my luck, and being poor on probability theory I gambled on the toy grabber machine (I don't know the exact name, it's that machine where you drop a coin and the claws move and you try to grab a toy and drop it in the pit) - and I lost.
I don't only have lesser money than what I already had, I still didn't have a gift for "that" girl.
The time came that we meet and I was not ready to tell her about the crazy thing I did just to give her a gift, so I just bought her a sundae and that made "that" girl smile. It was awesome, the feeling of being smiled at - honestly I don't remember the feeling, but it must be just awesome.
And for those who maybe asking who "that" girl is, you can guess, but I wont tell. And it's probably not who you think, remember the timeline?
Back to that difficult decision I have to make now, which is more delicious Balamban liempo or Sr. Pedro? I have to pick a favorite and my stomach can't decide.
Maybe
You made me confess
You made me tell my story
A geniune me is in your hands
You tell me your stories
Your fights and your worries
A genuine you, a person that's true
However, times changed
Truths becomes lies
Sadly lies becomes good enough truth
To ease the pain
Of being open, and being seen
Stories we tell
Are now half truths, half baked in an oven
The fire still burns but it does not burn the same
How did we come to this when we started
As true as the sun and wind?
Going back maybe
I confessed
I told my story
I'm genuine in your hands
But
You were just MAYBE.
You made me tell my story
A geniune me is in your hands
You tell me your stories
Your fights and your worries
A genuine you, a person that's true
However, times changed
Truths becomes lies
Sadly lies becomes good enough truth
To ease the pain
Of being open, and being seen
Stories we tell
Are now half truths, half baked in an oven
The fire still burns but it does not burn the same
How did we come to this when we started
As true as the sun and wind?
Going back maybe
I confessed
I told my story
I'm genuine in your hands
But
You were just MAYBE.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Book
Meaning I found in you is lost when you're not around
The dictionary only provides the definition
But its not the meaning my heart is bound.
In our last kiss our bodies were together
Yet we know that time passes and we were sure
This moment lasts nowhere near forever
In my mind, I keeep imagining that there must be someone else
Whom have gotten the sweet love that we once have
For there is a rule that nothing is lost in this universe
On my journey to my next princes, or my maiden in distress
I'm hoping a great fire of desire
To quench this aching and blistering heart and soul of mine
But most of all, aside from burning passion and ecstasy of love
The desire to have someone, always, Im looking at that book
Buried deep inside my heart that tells the story of who I am
The dictionary only provides the definition
But its not the meaning my heart is bound.
In our last kiss our bodies were together
Yet we know that time passes and we were sure
This moment lasts nowhere near forever
In my mind, I keeep imagining that there must be someone else
Whom have gotten the sweet love that we once have
For there is a rule that nothing is lost in this universe
On my journey to my next princes, or my maiden in distress
I'm hoping a great fire of desire
To quench this aching and blistering heart and soul of mine
But most of all, aside from burning passion and ecstasy of love
The desire to have someone, always, Im looking at that book
Buried deep inside my heart that tells the story of who I am
Friday, May 20, 2011
Real
Looking for that special someone takes guts. For me that categorizes myself as timid when it comes to dating, I find it tedious to "sell" your myself.
I remember when I was very young, my parents tell me not to get married early (or get someone else pregnant). I can safely say that they have succeeded in teaching me to enjoy life being single and unattached.
Have I been to a relationship? Absolutely. Many quotes says that it is important to love, be loved and experience love and of course warns of its evil twin, hurt. Have I stumbled? Yes!
Does this makes me jaded of sort about love? Maybe. In my observation from the people around me, close friends, relatives, not so close friends - even those of showbiz, it is hard to keep a relationship.
So what's the point of being in a relationship? Someone you can share something about? Someone to touch or hold your hand in the cold? I guess most of those things apply and more.
Being single doesn't mean Im alone though. I wasn't looking but then as fate would reveal, there she is staring back, not at me but through me.
No words escaped my mouth as she can read my mind. She holds my hand and it feels like Im holding eternity. The feel of her warmth on my skin is heaven on earth. She is perfect, and I found perfectness.
There is only one problem.
She is not real.
I remember when I was very young, my parents tell me not to get married early (or get someone else pregnant). I can safely say that they have succeeded in teaching me to enjoy life being single and unattached.
Have I been to a relationship? Absolutely. Many quotes says that it is important to love, be loved and experience love and of course warns of its evil twin, hurt. Have I stumbled? Yes!
Does this makes me jaded of sort about love? Maybe. In my observation from the people around me, close friends, relatives, not so close friends - even those of showbiz, it is hard to keep a relationship.
So what's the point of being in a relationship? Someone you can share something about? Someone to touch or hold your hand in the cold? I guess most of those things apply and more.
Being single doesn't mean Im alone though. I wasn't looking but then as fate would reveal, there she is staring back, not at me but through me.
No words escaped my mouth as she can read my mind. She holds my hand and it feels like Im holding eternity. The feel of her warmth on my skin is heaven on earth. She is perfect, and I found perfectness.
There is only one problem.
She is not real.
--Untitled--
Can't let you go, not because I still have romantic feelings for you, but because you were a big part of who I am today. Losing you is tantamount to losing a big chunk of myself. Who am I today is partly an effect of what I've been through with you.
Your friendship is a thing I want back. That's the truth, nothing less and nothing more. No agenda, no conspiracy.
It may be hard and I may fail but this time it doesnt matter if I win or lose as long as I tried. I'm getting tired of me being your 3rd letter of the alphabet in reverse, and I assume that you too feel the same.
Your friendship is a thing I want back. That's the truth, nothing less and nothing more. No agenda, no conspiracy.
It may be hard and I may fail but this time it doesnt matter if I win or lose as long as I tried. I'm getting tired of me being your 3rd letter of the alphabet in reverse, and I assume that you too feel the same.
Sunday, May 08, 2011
Dreamful Day
A tropical depression during summer? Wacky! - this is a fact not a dream!
Anyways, back to the dream.
I was walking towards the airport entrance. Then suddenly out of nowhere, I see a lightning strike, and heard a booming sound. I was scared. Then I saw this dark swirling clouds and it became very dark. My id or a picture of me was swept away by the wind. I decided not to go with my flight and instead go home.
I was hopping from stone to stone because the roads are flooded.
Somehow I reached home. When I was there, Clyde wanted to borrow my ipod because he wants to play with it - in an arcade game with someone else's ipod. I said no. An unrecignized lady asked me to install some software on her ipad. I realized that her ipad version is 6, while my ipod version is 9.
Then I was with Juvy, she said she is coming by May and would see us on the 15th because she only has a few days to stay and very busy.
-and with most dreams it ended.
Anyways, back to the dream.
I was walking towards the airport entrance. Then suddenly out of nowhere, I see a lightning strike, and heard a booming sound. I was scared. Then I saw this dark swirling clouds and it became very dark. My id or a picture of me was swept away by the wind. I decided not to go with my flight and instead go home.
I was hopping from stone to stone because the roads are flooded.
Somehow I reached home. When I was there, Clyde wanted to borrow my ipod because he wants to play with it - in an arcade game with someone else's ipod. I said no. An unrecignized lady asked me to install some software on her ipad. I realized that her ipad version is 6, while my ipod version is 9.
Then I was with Juvy, she said she is coming by May and would see us on the 15th because she only has a few days to stay and very busy.
-and with most dreams it ended.
Sunday, May 01, 2011
Friendster. Diary/Scrapbook/Social Networking. 2011
sky tol Jan 16, 2006 06:21 PM
Kani c dwight,
bwahahaha katawa nalang ko daan kay para seriousness na daun. Usa ka tao nga tinuod, kung imu cyang tan awon, naa cyay ulo, lawas ug nawng sa tao...heheheh. Btaw, he is a real person dili plastic (kaila man kaha mo ug plastic). Ang akong dili malimtan niya kay ang iyang pagka inosente (sa una rato noh! naka uyab na bya ni akong migo karon). Kung naa koy activity or contest sa una, mo tabang gyud ni cya nako (of course, g sweldohan mani nako...heheeh joke). Hantod karon, gamay ra ang iyang kausaban. formal na kunuhay ni cya kay naman c marites..mao ra to cya next time nalang ang uban....
Marianne Pepito Sep 25, 2005 09:43 PM
hello dwight....hehehhehe...i knew dwight since highschool, childish kaayo and he still acts this way despite his age...but being that, i still love him that way, mabait na kaibigan..he'll gonna stick with u through thick & thin...that's why i treasured his friendship so much
thanks dwight for being a friend to me, i'll always cherished the memories we shared way back in highschool... :)
keep up...good bless
always,
marianne :)
Jo Alfafara-Fenton Sep 01, 2005 01:49 AM
hajimemaste douzo yoroskio, dwite!!! he's a very nice jolly, easy to be with, super mabait? hehehhe mabait talaga. I personally knew him when we had our overnight gimmicks sa dalaguete...yah!!! bestfwen, kapatid, karamay, kasangga ni marites besin oi!!!! well, friendly kaayo ni cya and you will surely got a happy day when you had his company. Secret ni dwite kusog mohagok lyk pagovernyt namo wd matching do-re-mi-fa-so-la-ti-do hehheeh. peace, dwite! thanks diay sa imo company and all the chikka to the max. hope to see u soon!
Easter dela Calzada May 22, 2005 12:04 PM
Dwight, mysterious lagi kyo imo
pic?Hehehehe....Haven't seen this pal
for about 5 years after graduation from
highschool.....as far as I can remember,
he is about a few inch taller than me
and he is a bit innocent at that
time...Pero karon? grabeh nka
Dwight...dili nka matuohan...what
happened to yah....nagrabehan siguro ug
tubo? or what? Heheheeh.....bitaw..so
many things have changed since the time
we separate ways...halos dili nko kaila
nimo.....grabeh na kyo manulti as in
murag 30 nay edad...heheeheh...joke
only..."mura ra man".....but I think he
has grown man enough to take
responsibilites and challenges in
life....basin managhan ug maayo imo uban
ha!!!kalmahe lang.....peace bro.....I
wish you all the luck and blessing of
God....may he always be the light unto
your path......basta ayaw lang gyud ko
ug kalimti....panglibre baya gyud
ha...i-aprove gyud ni kay kapoy ug
type...ako sad testimonial ha....
khristianie lauta Feb 04, 2005 05:47 PM
sun certified dwight... dugay nako
wa kita aning tawhana. well, he's a
very simple guy. malingaw ni cyag
tanaw ug mga salida. dvds dvds...
hehe. lingaw sad kaau ni cya mu
sturya. fun fun. maau sad kau mu
program. he's one of our mentors
(oa ra ang term!?) sa PRISM/PAT.
WARNING: muhilom jud ni cya kaau
if gigutom. heheheheh dba? then
after kaon, ok na, normal. hehehe
ayoayo dwAyT
Les Reyes Jun 08, 2004 06:53 AM
C Dwight member jud na sya sauna sa 7
dwarfs back in high school. Pro karon
taasa na niya uy!! Graduate pa jud sa
UP COMSCI the best. I know this man
will work it's way to the top soon.
Just don't forget kon magVictory party
ka Dwight invite batch '99 ha? Kay
mokaon jud me'g daghan bahala na.....
ayo2x
Web Tan Apr 12, 2004 03:27 AM
Helpful kaayo ni cya nga pagkatao.
Every questions nako about computers,
iya jud tubagon maski nakulitan na na
cya.Tnx Dwight! Ang kapait lang mabun-
og ka ani nya kay carino brutal kaau ni
cya. Heheh...:)
Maryan Grace Tizon Mar 23, 2004 01:00 AM
i met dwight twice, but it is as if
i've known him for years already. one
of the nicest guy i've ever met..he
even watched the sound of music with
us during christmas day. =) i admire
he's simplicity. 'yano kaayo ni na
tao..lay labad. from what i know,
bangiitan pod ni cya mu program.. =)
dwight will go a long way...mga
girls..he's such a good catch!! =)
Frank III Manuel Mar 22, 2004 02:37 PM
si ian? Java certified!!! twin ni
nako! same height, same weight, same
dako'g kaon pero dili mu-tambok!!!
ngano bitaw dwight noh? weird.. Kani
siya, super bright but super humble.
(see: java certified). kataw-an lang
ang mga job interviews, salig nadawat
sa epson!! wahahaha!!! lingaw pud ni
siya nga person. lingaw i-pluck ang
hairs. (hehehehehe) corny pud mu-joke
and all. keep up, dwight! bangka jud
when you're rich ha!! bantay!!
maLenSky abad Mar 18, 2004 12:02 AM
c dwight??? ang lalaking cge lang
magbuwa ang baba gawas ug masakit!
vitamins nalay nagpadagans lawas!!
nhehehhe kusog manggunit ug
manghapak,kusog sad makiglalis. pero
that's just dwight...that's part of the
whole unique package, ang iyang
pagkabrutal!! his goal in life is to
marry someone from the province..kanang
mailad niya ba. hehehe he's the type of
guy whose life story could be sent
to "maalaala mo kaya", about sa iyang
pagbloom as a programmer. idol!!! pero
one thing i've realized is that he's
actually very funny n i'm very
delighted that he's one of my friends.
charness! (",)
Anne Pabroquiz Mar 07, 2004 01:46 AM
Si dwight?!? I used to call him brutal
coz he really holds u tightly..as
in..kusog manghapak..I always remember
times where we go to Ayala with JM and
talk everything about life..bisan
unsa..naa gani ni sila sabot ni JM na
magkauyab..as in..he's a gud friend and
i really admire him for passing the
java certification...grabe..he's also
funny to be with and kulit kaau..he's
also one of my bestest male
friends...Love u dwight!!! u
Juvy Sosmena Feb 22, 2004 09:22 PM
The most down-to-earth person i have
ever met. No egoistic attitude
whatsoever. He's also a very good
programmer. Not just good but DAMN
GOOD!!!:) He's easy to get along with.
A very good friend and will make a very
good teacher. Nindot jud cya mo-
teach 'coz makasabot dayon ka. He's
lifelong dream is to have a baby by the
age of 28, in whatever possible way.
HAHAHa!!
Cecilia Tizon Nov 26, 2003 09:10 PM
Dwight is one of those people you feel
comfortable with right after the first
meeting. He's a very down-to-earth
person with no egotism whatsoever.
Dwight laughs at the corniest jokes and
is funny himself, although he doesn't
intend to be sometimes (Ask him to
switch mouse and he'll drop the monitor
filter, hehe). He's also a darn good
programmer and a really good buddy.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Broke 2.0
As always, the last post was me being broke, and now this post is me being broke again. It's no fun but I'm just going to write about it than stress myself out thinking how to get out of this self-recession.
Sweldo came in just now and I dutifully paid my 2 credit cards, and telephone bill. What's left is a number divided by 15 and the result? 300 pesos per day. What happened to the days I can incessantly go to the malls and watch movies, splurge on techy devices, eat anything I want. Now. Gone.
I miss those days I can just go anywhere else without worrying if I'm breaking my budget. I don't even worry about money - before! Now, I even caution myself not to go the malls because it is very easy to spend when you are surrounded by beautiful and yummy things. Sigh.
A part time job that is not so stressful and not so tasking is all I need to correct this budget deficit I am currently encountering. But what part time job will make me at least 3000 a month? I can go for online work but I'm not quite sure what type of services I can offer, like web programming or anything.
Maybe on the next sweldo I can breathe a little more than this month because finally I already paid my 20k PC purchase last February. I hope so, or I'll be dammed.
Sweldo came in just now and I dutifully paid my 2 credit cards, and telephone bill. What's left is a number divided by 15 and the result? 300 pesos per day. What happened to the days I can incessantly go to the malls and watch movies, splurge on techy devices, eat anything I want. Now. Gone.
I miss those days I can just go anywhere else without worrying if I'm breaking my budget. I don't even worry about money - before! Now, I even caution myself not to go the malls because it is very easy to spend when you are surrounded by beautiful and yummy things. Sigh.
A part time job that is not so stressful and not so tasking is all I need to correct this budget deficit I am currently encountering. But what part time job will make me at least 3000 a month? I can go for online work but I'm not quite sure what type of services I can offer, like web programming or anything.
Maybe on the next sweldo I can breathe a little more than this month because finally I already paid my 20k PC purchase last February. I hope so, or I'll be dammed.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Broke
I realize that Im always broke nowadays. From the moment I stopped earning extra from my part time job last January, I now feel the pinch. Im always out of money and my supposedly "savings" account that is for savings (duh?!) and insurance money is continually being used as an emergency fund. This is definitely not a good sign of financial health.
My current job pays decent. I just got a raise but Im not feeling the effect because I opted to have 10% of my earnings go automatically to a fund. I cant get out of it yet or I can resign and get my money -but that's a decision I will not make soon.
How about finding another part time job? This always comes to mind, but I dont know, I dont have the energy to pursue finding one. Im not thrilled to do web developing too- I just want to sleep and travel and be out under the sun.
The travels, I agree I had many and its just half of the year! But to make it clear, those travels are comparably cheap than the travels I've had in the past. They are all within Cebu province and one Bohol-but even that Bohol trip is budget friendly so to speak.
Gadgets. Let me think, the last one that broke my wallet is my 20k desktop PC. But it's worth it because I'm using it as my work PC at home, which currently is just my downloading station and social networking pc.
I totally hate being in this state of money-less. Its sad to note that money literally is a figure of speech and that you only see it but not feel it.
Money money money in a poor man's world - is indeed a treasure and by treasure I mean rare.
My current job pays decent. I just got a raise but Im not feeling the effect because I opted to have 10% of my earnings go automatically to a fund. I cant get out of it yet or I can resign and get my money -but that's a decision I will not make soon.
How about finding another part time job? This always comes to mind, but I dont know, I dont have the energy to pursue finding one. Im not thrilled to do web developing too- I just want to sleep and travel and be out under the sun.
The travels, I agree I had many and its just half of the year! But to make it clear, those travels are comparably cheap than the travels I've had in the past. They are all within Cebu province and one Bohol-but even that Bohol trip is budget friendly so to speak.
Gadgets. Let me think, the last one that broke my wallet is my 20k desktop PC. But it's worth it because I'm using it as my work PC at home, which currently is just my downloading station and social networking pc.
I totally hate being in this state of money-less. Its sad to note that money literally is a figure of speech and that you only see it but not feel it.
Money money money in a poor man's world - is indeed a treasure and by treasure I mean rare.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Uninspired
It is the lenten season. Four days of weekend.
Times have changed, when I was a kid, I remember being told not to get out of the house because the "hudeyos" will come and get kids. There is also caution on being wounded because it will not heal. Binignit is cooked after hearing the 7 last words of Jesus. And most of all no more bathing after 3pm on Good Friday.
Stores were closed and there is little to no programming on tv and radios - or if there were only those of religious nature.
Now? Some stations offer reruns of their soap operas and or movies that doesnt really fit "religious". The entertainment variety show arm of the networks are in day off because most of their actors and actresses are lounging in the beach or outside the country for their much needed beauty vacations. Binignit is still cooked though and most malls offer half-day to no work on some days.
For the common household like ours, the internet is at its peak of use. With all the members of the family at home, bandwidth is at an all time high. There is only an occassional lull moment but it is a far cry from the nothing-todo era of the bygone decades.
Like Christmas, I've lost the feeling of the Lenten season- it just become another holiday that gives us a couple of extra days away from work. I would like to do some religious activity but my cousins are not "game" and it is tiring to just go to a religious place alone without transportation.
I wonder what it might have been years ago in the time of my grandparents where tv and the internet is virtually non existent. How would they spend the days, those very hot summer days?
It is a question some can answer because they still have their grandparents to ask, but for me it would be forever a question.
Times have changed, when I was a kid, I remember being told not to get out of the house because the "hudeyos" will come and get kids. There is also caution on being wounded because it will not heal. Binignit is cooked after hearing the 7 last words of Jesus. And most of all no more bathing after 3pm on Good Friday.
Stores were closed and there is little to no programming on tv and radios - or if there were only those of religious nature.
Now? Some stations offer reruns of their soap operas and or movies that doesnt really fit "religious". The entertainment variety show arm of the networks are in day off because most of their actors and actresses are lounging in the beach or outside the country for their much needed beauty vacations. Binignit is still cooked though and most malls offer half-day to no work on some days.
For the common household like ours, the internet is at its peak of use. With all the members of the family at home, bandwidth is at an all time high. There is only an occassional lull moment but it is a far cry from the nothing-todo era of the bygone decades.
Like Christmas, I've lost the feeling of the Lenten season- it just become another holiday that gives us a couple of extra days away from work. I would like to do some religious activity but my cousins are not "game" and it is tiring to just go to a religious place alone without transportation.
I wonder what it might have been years ago in the time of my grandparents where tv and the internet is virtually non existent. How would they spend the days, those very hot summer days?
It is a question some can answer because they still have their grandparents to ask, but for me it would be forever a question.
Friday, April 15, 2011
2 Million Madness
Our company is having this novel idea of raffling (is this a valid word?) 2 million pesos (1.4 million after taxes). Did you miss that? Yeah, 2 million!
I know, crazy right?
Well for me it is. From the very first time I heard the ruckus, I kind of felt shaken and not a good kind of shake. Outright let me say, management is just being lazy with this gimmick!
What would I do if I win this prize? Technically I'm not yet part of the 1st draw this June due to the rule that states "at least one year of service". Anyways, if in the succeeding draws I will win, it would be goodbye company N. Yes, no hesitation, I would take it as a sign from above that its time to move on.
Why such negative feedback to this?
Many. For one the company has 4 million worth of money they can't even sponsor pity (as they say) allowances like a rice, grocery, project allowances that employees can readily consume. Yes the intended purpose of the amount is for the lucky winner can jumpstart owning a house and lot or car.
Yes (count the number of Yeses on this entry, it may reach 2 million, wahahah) they say that salaries are now competitive based on performance and that these pity allowances are now part of the "re-aligned" pay. Im not really sold. But that's beside the point, 4 million a year (divided by approx 500 employees) can do so much to uplift the spirits of a lowly software engineer.
This is just my opinion. Im not protesting because management has already explained the purpose of this "loyalty" program.
As I said I think they're just being lazy. Period.
I know, crazy right?
Well for me it is. From the very first time I heard the ruckus, I kind of felt shaken and not a good kind of shake. Outright let me say, management is just being lazy with this gimmick!
What would I do if I win this prize? Technically I'm not yet part of the 1st draw this June due to the rule that states "at least one year of service". Anyways, if in the succeeding draws I will win, it would be goodbye company N. Yes, no hesitation, I would take it as a sign from above that its time to move on.
Why such negative feedback to this?
Many. For one the company has 4 million worth of money they can't even sponsor pity (as they say) allowances like a rice, grocery, project allowances that employees can readily consume. Yes the intended purpose of the amount is for the lucky winner can jumpstart owning a house and lot or car.
Yes (count the number of Yeses on this entry, it may reach 2 million, wahahah) they say that salaries are now competitive based on performance and that these pity allowances are now part of the "re-aligned" pay. Im not really sold. But that's beside the point, 4 million a year (divided by approx 500 employees) can do so much to uplift the spirits of a lowly software engineer.
This is just my opinion. Im not protesting because management has already explained the purpose of this "loyalty" program.
As I said I think they're just being lazy. Period.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Chat Room
I've been very talkative lately. Ok, to those officemate(s) who will ultimately read this - I'm not the quite person I was when I was newly hired, I admit Im a talker so can we get past that?
It's guilt free, I was doing these pseudo-documentation for my upcoming development, and honestly it doesn't in itself interest me to just sit down and read them and edit them and reread them. Im not that kind of person. Im not a reader, Im a talker. But it's not the case that I ignore them, I do finish them and ask guidance from my manager who by the way is halfway around the world, which means if I send email the reply would be 12 hrs later which translates to "tomorrow".
Also it's guilt free because I am ftp-uploading this gargantuous VM Image file which takes forever.
Reasons. I have many. But the chatter lately is because the topic is so close to the heart, talk about life (love, family, s*x), work, aspirations and dreams. Not to mention occasional topic of places I would like to visit one day.
I know I am paid to work. And it isn't like Im not working, I am.
But Im just slacking a bit and then back to serious work when all these frustrations (not job related) are shared and my mind is clear.
It's guilt free, I was doing these pseudo-documentation for my upcoming development, and honestly it doesn't in itself interest me to just sit down and read them and edit them and reread them. Im not that kind of person. Im not a reader, Im a talker. But it's not the case that I ignore them, I do finish them and ask guidance from my manager who by the way is halfway around the world, which means if I send email the reply would be 12 hrs later which translates to "tomorrow".
Also it's guilt free because I am ftp-uploading this gargantuous VM Image file which takes forever.
Reasons. I have many. But the chatter lately is because the topic is so close to the heart, talk about life (love, family, s*x), work, aspirations and dreams. Not to mention occasional topic of places I would like to visit one day.
I know I am paid to work. And it isn't like Im not working, I am.
But Im just slacking a bit and then back to serious work when all these frustrations (not job related) are shared and my mind is clear.
Friday, April 08, 2011
A Note on Death
Another day to live, to some of us today is an ordinary day. But to the old, to the sickly to those with terminal illness, waking up alive today is another miracle of life.
Somewhere someone celebrates life! A birth of a new baby, a chance of second life, a cure of a disease, a food on their plates. But somewhere someone also grieve for a dear one's life lost.
Death does not follow a pre determined state, and almost always catches us by surprise! It doesnt always follow a predictable path.
I've known a few that bit the dust too soon and unexpectedly. There's my cousin who was shot dead. My uncle who unexpectedly died on his sleep. My other uncle who succumbed to an unknown illness.
That is why I remember a few years back, I promised myself to live life to the most extent that I possibly can. To live by not just breathing but making each breathing moment count.
To live without regret, to always learn and never stop learning. To touch other's lives. To explore the world and not just see it but live it.
Somewhere someone celebrates life! A birth of a new baby, a chance of second life, a cure of a disease, a food on their plates. But somewhere someone also grieve for a dear one's life lost.
Death does not follow a pre determined state, and almost always catches us by surprise! It doesnt always follow a predictable path.
I've known a few that bit the dust too soon and unexpectedly. There's my cousin who was shot dead. My uncle who unexpectedly died on his sleep. My other uncle who succumbed to an unknown illness.
That is why I remember a few years back, I promised myself to live life to the most extent that I possibly can. To live by not just breathing but making each breathing moment count.
To live without regret, to always learn and never stop learning. To touch other's lives. To explore the world and not just see it but live it.
Friday, March 25, 2011
Fairytale
Im in a pool
A frog you must kiss
I may not turn out to the the handsome prince
But let me promise you this, you will be
My one and only princess
I may not have a horse
Or carry a sword
That will protect you from the witch
But let me promise you this, I will be
The one to kiss you when you fall into a deep sleep
Out of the billion
You are my only maiden
That can fill this shoe
You left when we danced
When we danced in the rain
I may not come from a ship
That makes you wish you have feet
My love is as big as the ocean
Let me give up my breath
To be with you beneath
Long hair, red hood, skin white as snow
Doesn't really matter
For they are just skin deep that time can erase
A horse or a noble steed
I have not
Even chariots, or cars I can't even rent
But let me promise you this, we can travel
Together holding hands as long as we have each other
A frog you must kiss
I may not turn out to the the handsome prince
But let me promise you this, you will be
My one and only princess
I may not have a horse
Or carry a sword
That will protect you from the witch
But let me promise you this, I will be
The one to kiss you when you fall into a deep sleep
Out of the billion
You are my only maiden
That can fill this shoe
You left when we danced
When we danced in the rain
I may not come from a ship
That makes you wish you have feet
My love is as big as the ocean
Let me give up my breath
To be with you beneath
Long hair, red hood, skin white as snow
Doesn't really matter
For they are just skin deep that time can erase
A horse or a noble steed
I have not
Even chariots, or cars I can't even rent
But let me promise you this, we can travel
Together holding hands as long as we have each other
How May Times Will It Take?
My intentions are good
But why do it translates to nothingness?
Can I go back
To the moment before I even tried?
Now Im carrying the weight
And I cant barely hold it up
Atlas must felt the same
Holding the sky away from the sand
Should accept that sometimes
The truth hurts, and hurts deep
Cause it may take a hundred lifetimes
For me to finally get it right
Should have get wiser
From each moment that life
Turns to a diffent cheek
But no, sometimes wrong is an adrenaline rush
So the last thing that I can speak
To you that cares
Is a simple sorry
That even me sometimes can't take
Uncertain
How can I go
When my thoughts are peg
On you?
How can I move on
When my inspiration is
Still you?
Can't I run
Away from your shadow
For maybe just awhile
Without losing breath?
Can't I live a day
Without you in my thoughts
That hours seems to stand still
Where every second pierces my health?
Is it really you?
Or am I just imaging an us
Maybe the reality is
You, me but not we
When my thoughts are peg
On you?
How can I move on
When my inspiration is
Still you?
Can't I run
Away from your shadow
For maybe just awhile
Without losing breath?
Can't I live a day
Without you in my thoughts
That hours seems to stand still
Where every second pierces my health?
Is it really you?
Or am I just imaging an us
Maybe the reality is
You, me but not we
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Conspicuous Theory
To say the obvious is an insult to the senses. We are given the faculties of sight, hearing, smell, touch and taste for a reason! That is to USE them.
Like many things unused (examples: appendix, body hairs, wisdom teeth), it is either shrunk, or totally erased in the next iteration of homo sapiens species.
Sometimes I wonder if people use a fare share of the brain power that's been alloted by nature in which they can tap into. Aha! There are times they don't because they let some blood pumping organ do the thinking that's supposed to be done by the neuron-rich member.
Common sense is after all not that common they should be renamed as uncommon sense for those people.
I'm just disappointed because I for one is guilty of not using the common sense that I've been blabbering about. Sometimes I just like to ask and ask unintelligently. It's a part of my charms. But not all the time. Not always. Not in a life-and-death situation. Not in a defining moment of your life or your career. Not in time of making friendships and building teamwork. There are limits. Boundaries. Line.
To end, choose wisely. Don't get carried away by that sudden rise of emotion that shows physically either as a rosy cheek or a tear. You have other faculties you need to take into account rather than that raw feeling that most if not all the time you will regret. Don't be stupid, or more aptly don't be stupid MOST of the time.
Like many things unused (examples: appendix, body hairs, wisdom teeth), it is either shrunk, or totally erased in the next iteration of homo sapiens species.
Sometimes I wonder if people use a fare share of the brain power that's been alloted by nature in which they can tap into. Aha! There are times they don't because they let some blood pumping organ do the thinking that's supposed to be done by the neuron-rich member.
Common sense is after all not that common they should be renamed as uncommon sense for those people.
I'm just disappointed because I for one is guilty of not using the common sense that I've been blabbering about. Sometimes I just like to ask and ask unintelligently. It's a part of my charms. But not all the time. Not always. Not in a life-and-death situation. Not in a defining moment of your life or your career. Not in time of making friendships and building teamwork. There are limits. Boundaries. Line.
To end, choose wisely. Don't get carried away by that sudden rise of emotion that shows physically either as a rosy cheek or a tear. You have other faculties you need to take into account rather than that raw feeling that most if not all the time you will regret. Don't be stupid, or more aptly don't be stupid MOST of the time.
Monday, March 21, 2011
Wish That I Can Honestly Say "I Love You Too
Because it will make the world a better place for you and probably for me too.
Because if that happens all the searching will finally end.
Because when that time comes forever will not be enough.
If I am just being stubborn right now, I wish it would go away.
If I am just blind right now, I wish I will see the light.
If I am just lost, I wish I find the way.
Because if in the future I am destined to be with you and you are gone forever and will never be mine, the universe should be ready for my wrath.
I honestly pray that you will find the one. Right now its not me. If in the future it "may" be me and you are with someone else, read above.
If you are hurt by me, I am more hurt because what kind of person would like to inflict hurt to others? Unless they are enemies, but we are NOT enemies, though right now we are neither friends.
It pains me to know I'm the cause of your pain.
That shouldn't be.
If that's the case then we should probably stop trying to be friends again.
Treat me as your foe.
Hate me.
No! I take that "hate me" phrase back.
You should not hate me because you will still care.
Just altogether ignore and don't care my existence, my presence, me being here.
Let me be extinct in your world.
I am an optimist.
Time heals all wounds and recovers the wounded.
Everything has its time and I deeply pray to my God that one day you will truly forgive me.
And that one day I will forgive myself.
Because if that happens all the searching will finally end.
Because when that time comes forever will not be enough.
If I am just being stubborn right now, I wish it would go away.
If I am just blind right now, I wish I will see the light.
If I am just lost, I wish I find the way.
Because if in the future I am destined to be with you and you are gone forever and will never be mine, the universe should be ready for my wrath.
I honestly pray that you will find the one. Right now its not me. If in the future it "may" be me and you are with someone else, read above.
If you are hurt by me, I am more hurt because what kind of person would like to inflict hurt to others? Unless they are enemies, but we are NOT enemies, though right now we are neither friends.
It pains me to know I'm the cause of your pain.
That shouldn't be.
If that's the case then we should probably stop trying to be friends again.
Treat me as your foe.
Hate me.
No! I take that "hate me" phrase back.
You should not hate me because you will still care.
Just altogether ignore and don't care my existence, my presence, me being here.
Let me be extinct in your world.
I am an optimist.
Time heals all wounds and recovers the wounded.
Everything has its time and I deeply pray to my God that one day you will truly forgive me.
And that one day I will forgive myself.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
March Madness
I'm still sane, don't worry. All faculties checked.
What I'm referring to is the calamity that has happened recently in Japan. That 9.0 magnitude earthquake followed by the tsunami that leveled many towns and that nuclear reactor melting down is sort of maddening. Is the world ending. I don't like to think so.
I wanted to live. Live like until I'm 80 or so. Live to see what the world becomes in 2060's. Are there still computers like we have today or will they be in a new "form"? What would be the killer "app" by then? Will there be a first step on Mars? Things like this makes me want to live longer.
Right now, it seems that the world has many incidents of earthquakes, tsunamis, glacial melting, volcanoes erupting - but according to one online article I read, thats not true. The earth just had "average" occurrences of those events, the problem is that many people are living on these zones that's why the increase in damage. Also that we are now so connected that what happens to an individual who has a twitter account will quickly update their twitter accounts and let know the world.
We should take care of our environment, it's ailing and it needs our help. We should be responsible for each other and that we may pass this Earth to our future generation in a "livable" state.
What I'm referring to is the calamity that has happened recently in Japan. That 9.0 magnitude earthquake followed by the tsunami that leveled many towns and that nuclear reactor melting down is sort of maddening. Is the world ending. I don't like to think so.
I wanted to live. Live like until I'm 80 or so. Live to see what the world becomes in 2060's. Are there still computers like we have today or will they be in a new "form"? What would be the killer "app" by then? Will there be a first step on Mars? Things like this makes me want to live longer.
Right now, it seems that the world has many incidents of earthquakes, tsunamis, glacial melting, volcanoes erupting - but according to one online article I read, thats not true. The earth just had "average" occurrences of those events, the problem is that many people are living on these zones that's why the increase in damage. Also that we are now so connected that what happens to an individual who has a twitter account will quickly update their twitter accounts and let know the world.
We should take care of our environment, it's ailing and it needs our help. We should be responsible for each other and that we may pass this Earth to our future generation in a "livable" state.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Manila, Manila, I keep Coming Back To Manila
The song is in my head! And yes I’m coming back to Manila albeit only for a very short vacation starting this Friday until Sunday! Wohooo!
I planned this trip with my sister last year but had to cancel because the holiday was cancelled by our ever dearest new president Abnoy (oopss, Noynoy I mean).
Aside from my sister I am also with my SpEd classmates but they will be going there earlier than me, we will just meet there when I’m there.
It’s been almost a year since I was in Manila. The last time was last June when I went to Bora and had an extra day to stay. I miss living in Manila, I’m not like everybody else that loathes it. I actually love the place, but not as much as I love my own Cebu City.
Itinerary includes: Ocean Park and EK. Although I’ve been there I’m still thrilled to go there again. I’m sure I’m going to ride the MRT (I miss the MRT) and go to the malls.
Even though it is just a short stay, it’s enough to quench my Manila thirst.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Stuck in a Moment
It’s been a month since I am on this state, “limbo”-like, though I’ve never been to limbo, but I guess limbo is like this. You await for something, knowing that you are waiting for something yet you must do something before that something you await comes… – confusing? My point exactly!
I thought that finally I can stay put on someplace – this place – yet I’m already thinking otherwise.
It’s just some feeling though, I’m not finalizing it yet, and if there’s anything I’ve learned from the past is to NOT be compulsive about my actions and decisions. I promise to myself that I will study and learn as much as I can and weigh the pros and cons of the situation before I make any decisions.
For now I guess I’m just tired of the “beach” outing last weekend that I’m just so low in energy.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
The 3am Blog
Ok so I'm awake this very early, and it is not December for the Misa de Gallo, it is for the beach! Yes the beach, I always wanted to go but because of the weather, the crazy weather, I didn't, but now? Yes!
To what beach? Bantayan island. The last time I was there was like ages ago back in 2005. As I remembered it, it was a beautiful white sandy beach.
I don't know how to swim, but I like to just be on the shoreline watching the waves, the beauty of nature including those that walks. I like to be on the beach because it pauses time away from the razzle dazzle of city life.
I've been standing here and being bitten by mosquitos bit by bit waiting for my ride, where are you newfound acquintance?
So excited already, my camera's gonna love the love!
To what beach? Bantayan island. The last time I was there was like ages ago back in 2005. As I remembered it, it was a beautiful white sandy beach.
I don't know how to swim, but I like to just be on the shoreline watching the waves, the beauty of nature including those that walks. I like to be on the beach because it pauses time away from the razzle dazzle of city life.
I've been standing here and being bitten by mosquitos bit by bit waiting for my ride, where are you newfound acquintance?
So excited already, my camera's gonna love the love!
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Road Block
I am currently in a roadblock. I don’t know where to turn or if I should move in the first place. I’m imagining myself to just be out of my body and see the other side (no! not die but just see the other side). Am I waiting for a good outcome or is waiting a bad idea? My instincts tell me to just do what I can do to get out from this situation and face the consequences of my actions good or bad, and just charge it to experience.
On the other hand, waiting does pose the same amount of risk and consequences as moving.
I’m on the move, so wish me good luck!
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Windows Phone 7 “Atatness”
I know this feeling
The rush and excite it brings
For I know that I wanted
And I wanted it dear
Download increased my thrill
For it is slow as a snail
How can I progress
When the progress bar does not increase?
I already downloaded
Lots of references and
Tutorials, videos, blogs
Name it and its already embedded
Can’t wait for this night
Should post a thing from the emulator
That will make known to the world
Windows Phone is not yet over.
Email Phobia
Recently I noticed that I hate opening my emails, like Yahoo and even my own corporate email account which is one of the first applications I open when I turn-on my office workstation. It’s like I’m afraid that it brings only bad news. I hate bad news, who doesn’t right?
The Truth.
The reason that I hate opening Yahoo emails is that it is the email account where I can be reached by my previous part time job. You see I left it hanging, my status with them, and I have some serious issues to make-up that I don’t have the courage to face them yet. I know it’s kind of cowardly and running away from the problem instead of facing it. The problem is that it’s dragging on and I want to let go, but I’m stuck.
Karma.
Like a chain, now I feel a little mortified when I’m about to open my corporate account. For it feels that at any moment I will be reprimanded and it will completely ruin my day. Specially on Tuesdays when we had this weekly meetings about status and progress.
I know the time to face my problem is getting nearer and nearer and I have no other option but to face them head on.
Is there a safety helmet designed for such “incidents”? I need a hard one, I’m afraid for my life.
Slingshot Effect
This concept has been used for ages by those people that design spaceships. Instead of burning fuel to reach a destination let’s say another planet, they use a neat trick by making the probe (or whatever space ship) build momentum by circling another celestial body (like the moon) then because of whatever force will “slingshot” the ship to its destination, less fuel more efficient.
But this blog is not about physics or astronomy. This is about, just a piece of my thinking.
In the early days, like 7 years ago, I was like burning to get into a destination. With so much to prove and idealism to fuel those dreams, it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure out that I’ll get there, albeit worn out and jaded.
But, I did get there. Jaded. A little bit. Ok, more than a little bit.
And as a promise to myself, or to learn from the experience, I said “I would never do that again…”.
So passed the years that I’m just an Earth-bound satellite, never really excelling, just not high enough to escape Earth’s gravity.
And yet, I get tired of being mediocre all the time. I miss the challenge. I miss the fire.
I did not know when it started, but I’m actually accelerating. Will I let myself to get burnt out this time or will I use the slingshot effect? The latter is promising but I need a lot of math instead of just raw desires, and math in this case is strategy.
And today, I’m expecting a lot of bad news. Maybe I will get scolded, or embarrassed or ridiculed. I don’t know. I don’t really know. But this is the feeling that made me realize I’m stepping out of my comfort zone again. To take on new challenges. To take on new responsibilities. To breath a new meaning to this life.
For this renewed ties to myself I say, “Bon Voyage!”
Friday, February 11, 2011
The Dreams
1st Episode: The Taxi Ride
I was travelling by plane, when it landed I hop into a taxi. The taxi driver said that some routes are closed and we need to go the other way. He told me that I can borrow his bicycle so that I can go to my destination faster. I complied and carried some sort of package and cycle my way to my friend's house.
When I arrived at her place, she asked "Where is your bag? Did you get the plate number of the taxi?",that's when I realized that I did not take note of the number. I felt desperate and stupid because I left my things there. My friend texted my number as to our location and hoping that the taxi driver will deliver my things.
After some moment, the taxi arrived and the good samaritan driver returned my things. I felt relieved and woke up.
2nd Episode: Rain and Singing Cat
My friend invited me to her wedding anniversary. I was in a yellow shorts and white t-shirt and carried an extra yellow shirt. When I arrived at the place and tried to wear the yellow shirt I felt off and decided I should wear something more formal and decided to go back home and change.
On my way, heavy rains fell and I was soaked. I find shelter in a store with a transparent wall (I think it was glass/window shield). Another friend of mind mine with her boyfriend riding a jeepney, passes me by and upon seeing me laughed hard.
The rain stopped and I decided to just walk home since it is near. The "trisikad" driver tells told me to go to the other side of the road since they are not allowed to take passengers on where I was standing.
When I was about to sit on the "trisikad" I saw three (3) common pets yet are strange.
The first I recognized was a very fat cat sleeping. The next thing I notice is the puppy which is playing on the seats, the puppy looks like a stuffed toy and not real. The strangest of them all is the singing cat that has a body of a bee. "Hey Ya" is the song it is repeating as I remembered. Another strange thing about the cat is that its body can be folded like an envelop.
A man said that these pets are trained. Also they are being "lent" from somewhere and they teach them new tricks as to improve and add more to their skills.
I look up the sky, it was dark and full of brightly shining stars.
Tuesday, February 01, 2011
Heartful
Yes, it's obvious that I am not fond of the V day.
It's one of those days that I really hate, actually not hate -it's such a strong word, maybe just dislike.
Think of it, suddenly the world is Full of Love! Eeky. Wherever you turn you see hearts. Bread shaped like hearts, table mats cutouts of hearts, lovesongs over the air, I predict heart contact lenses this year.
Business is booming especially those that sells flowers- the other season where flowers are in demand comes 9 months after, All Saints/Souls Day. Hotels, motels, pension houses, cottages, parks, vacant lots are teeming with couples expressing their "love" for each other by exchanging bodily fluids.
Everybody is such in a loving mode but not so much love that it's zero crime, only a Pacquiao match can do that, that you feel the world is on a better place even for just a day.
The only thing I like about V day is the romantic themed movies, studios local or international, are releasing. It's a guilt free pleasure to just watch those films and just forget your problems, be it a problem of the heart but seriously the head gets all the problems.
Anyways, Feb 14 has become embedded in our culture that it really is useless to rant against it -better why not enjoy it. And this year it would be spent with my 2 little angels.
It's one of those days that I really hate, actually not hate -it's such a strong word, maybe just dislike.
Think of it, suddenly the world is Full of Love! Eeky. Wherever you turn you see hearts. Bread shaped like hearts, table mats cutouts of hearts, lovesongs over the air, I predict heart contact lenses this year.
Business is booming especially those that sells flowers- the other season where flowers are in demand comes 9 months after, All Saints/Souls Day. Hotels, motels, pension houses, cottages, parks, vacant lots are teeming with couples expressing their "love" for each other by exchanging bodily fluids.
Everybody is such in a loving mode but not so much love that it's zero crime, only a Pacquiao match can do that, that you feel the world is on a better place even for just a day.
The only thing I like about V day is the romantic themed movies, studios local or international, are releasing. It's a guilt free pleasure to just watch those films and just forget your problems, be it a problem of the heart but seriously the head gets all the problems.
Anyways, Feb 14 has become embedded in our culture that it really is useless to rant against it -better why not enjoy it. And this year it would be spent with my 2 little angels.
Monday, January 24, 2011
Weddings
In my age, most of my colleagues and friends are either hitched or have trophies (slang for babies). I have none (fortunately or unfortunately, it's too early to tell).
#this is a shoutout
#this is a shoutout
Sunday, January 23, 2011
The Day Mini Died
I'm still on the denial stage.
I'm still hoping that she can be revived.
I shouldn't have used her like that.
I'm an abusive person.
Making her work overnight, even when I know she is not alright.
I know something's wrong when she makes those 'clicking' sounds.
I know something's going to be wrong because I feel her heating up when I wake up each morning after just letting her stay up all night.
So much memories are in her.
I've put in so many parts of my thoughts to her.
Now maybe gone. Forever.With her.
I think this is goodbye my mini.
I can't replace you for now. You will be missed.
I'm still hoping that she can be revived.
I shouldn't have used her like that.
I'm an abusive person.
Making her work overnight, even when I know she is not alright.
I know something's wrong when she makes those 'clicking' sounds.
I know something's going to be wrong because I feel her heating up when I wake up each morning after just letting her stay up all night.
So much memories are in her.
I've put in so many parts of my thoughts to her.
Now maybe gone. Forever.With her.
I think this is goodbye my mini.
I can't replace you for now. You will be missed.
Friday, January 14, 2011
My First Ever 'Walk'
Woke up early at around 3:00am.
I had a fever going on because of some infection I got from eating too much spicy foods the night before. I tested my feet if I can manage to standup without fainting, it would be too dramatic if I faint suddenly in front of thousands of people.
Cooked an egg. Hard boiled.
I promised that I would join the Walk for Mary, the first time ever! Not that Im a devotee, but my primary purpose is to take photos of the crowd. Just image the scene, the sky is still dark, thousands of people walking with candles. What a great scene to practice taking shots in low light!
I heard the prayers over the air.
After eating the egg, I put on slippers and just hurried my way to the road, with just my camera, wallet and umbrella - in a bag of course. I thought that I was already late for the procession, but I was wrong, I was there in Fuente Osmenia circle around 30 minutes before the image of the Birhen sa Guadalupe arrived.
Waiting.
I positioned myself at the skywalk to have a better view of the masses. When the image of blessed mother finally arrived, it was an awesome view to behold! It was really surreal to see all those people, praying and singing the tune of "Batobalani sa Gugma" with raised hands and swaying them over the air.
Ache.
Arriving at the Basilica, I decided that I should be inside and hear mass. It was when I stood there for more than an hour that I felt my waist is going to dislodge and Im so thirsty and hungry! Not to mention that sobbing pain I feel on my feet.
Tired.
Checked another one for the Sinulog activities I like to attend. Tomorrow is the fluvial parade I wanted to attend also, because it has been a long time since. But I feel that my body is not up to another pushing and shoving and walking long distances for tomorrow, but I'm still contemplating, will listen to my body for signs.
2011 is the year I got my Sinulog groove back!
I had a fever going on because of some infection I got from eating too much spicy foods the night before. I tested my feet if I can manage to standup without fainting, it would be too dramatic if I faint suddenly in front of thousands of people.
I promised that I would join the Walk for Mary, the first time ever! Not that Im a devotee, but my primary purpose is to take photos of the crowd. Just image the scene, the sky is still dark, thousands of people walking with candles. What a great scene to practice taking shots in low light!
I heard the prayers over the air.
After eating the egg, I put on slippers and just hurried my way to the road, with just my camera, wallet and umbrella - in a bag of course. I thought that I was already late for the procession, but I was wrong, I was there in Fuente Osmenia circle around 30 minutes before the image of the Birhen sa Guadalupe arrived.
Waiting.
I positioned myself at the skywalk to have a better view of the masses. When the image of blessed mother finally arrived, it was an awesome view to behold! It was really surreal to see all those people, praying and singing the tune of "Batobalani sa Gugma" with raised hands and swaying them over the air.
Ache.
Arriving at the Basilica, I decided that I should be inside and hear mass. It was when I stood there for more than an hour that I felt my waist is going to dislodge and Im so thirsty and hungry! Not to mention that sobbing pain I feel on my feet.
Tired.
Checked another one for the Sinulog activities I like to attend. Tomorrow is the fluvial parade I wanted to attend also, because it has been a long time since. But I feel that my body is not up to another pushing and shoving and walking long distances for tomorrow, but I'm still contemplating, will listen to my body for signs.
2011 is the year I got my Sinulog groove back!
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Sinulog Fever
After not feeling "Christmasy" at all during the Christmas season, it's Sinulog time!
And yes, I definitely am more excited for Sinulog rather than Christmas this time. Why? I also asked that myself.
Maybe because Sinulog is upbeat compared to the melacholic melodies of Pasko.
Maybe because you don't have to give presents.
Maybe because it draws people to the streets, the dancing, the processions, compared to the much more family-oriented Christmas.
As for this year's Sinulog, I have ticked off a few (from my Sinulog bucket list) of the things that I wanted to do (or redo) in Sinulog. My ultimate goal maybe for next year is to join that photocontest, but I need to get the right gear first.
Devoutee or not, I am having a renewed interest in Sinulog, it is my new favorite season of the year!
And yes, I definitely am more excited for Sinulog rather than Christmas this time. Why? I also asked that myself.
Maybe because Sinulog is upbeat compared to the melacholic melodies of Pasko.
Maybe because you don't have to give presents.
Maybe because it draws people to the streets, the dancing, the processions, compared to the much more family-oriented Christmas.
As for this year's Sinulog, I have ticked off a few (from my Sinulog bucket list) of the things that I wanted to do (or redo) in Sinulog. My ultimate goal maybe for next year is to join that photocontest, but I need to get the right gear first.
Devoutee or not, I am having a renewed interest in Sinulog, it is my new favorite season of the year!
Tuesday, January 04, 2011
It Started With Rain
2011 started very WET. It rains almost every hour for the last 4 days.
It's gloomy, cold and makes me want to stay in my bed like forever.
If not for the "nature" calls.
If not for work.
If not for the headache I get by sleeping too much - I would have just lay there like sleeping beauty, or sleeping beast to be politically correct.
Family drama spiked a few metric system high. I didn't win as I would like it to be, but I guess I learn a lesson that will stick to me for quite some time and that is to just be respectful and stay away from family business that's not my business.
Work is fine I suppose. With an impending new requests from the client coming, I'm a bit nervous - overwhelmed actually, it's like I'm looking at a forest and needs to know the varieties of the trees in it.
I'm with great positivity that my partner who is the master of all these "trees" will come back from her supposed to be vacation and at the very least still guide me on these coming requirements. She would surely help me pass the obstacles ahead. But in any case, I myself feels that I can do this, it may not be a smooth ride but I'm trying to get out of it - whole.
One thing that I did not get myself whole last 2009 is my contract with a dear professor friend. It saddens me really to be unproductive and a burden to her. I promised her certain things that I didn't deliver. It was my bad, I'll offer no explanation, no redemption.
2011 is just starting, it may have started wet but knowing the Philippines, it will get really really hot soon.
It's gloomy, cold and makes me want to stay in my bed like forever.
If not for the "nature" calls.
If not for work.
If not for the headache I get by sleeping too much - I would have just lay there like sleeping beauty, or sleeping beast to be politically correct.
Family drama spiked a few metric system high. I didn't win as I would like it to be, but I guess I learn a lesson that will stick to me for quite some time and that is to just be respectful and stay away from family business that's not my business.
Work is fine I suppose. With an impending new requests from the client coming, I'm a bit nervous - overwhelmed actually, it's like I'm looking at a forest and needs to know the varieties of the trees in it.
I'm with great positivity that my partner who is the master of all these "trees" will come back from her supposed to be vacation and at the very least still guide me on these coming requirements. She would surely help me pass the obstacles ahead. But in any case, I myself feels that I can do this, it may not be a smooth ride but I'm trying to get out of it - whole.
One thing that I did not get myself whole last 2009 is my contract with a dear professor friend. It saddens me really to be unproductive and a burden to her. I promised her certain things that I didn't deliver. It was my bad, I'll offer no explanation, no redemption.
2011 is just starting, it may have started wet but knowing the Philippines, it will get really really hot soon.
Monday, December 27, 2010
2010 Reckoning
It was another "full" year for me. So much had happen. As expected some of the things I planned worked, other failed miserably and a few surprises did happen. I made friends, a lot of acquaintances, maybe a few enemies, zilch lovelife, multiple jobs, travels, botched plans, a few gadgets, and I can say overall a good year!
I will not enumerate one by one what happened in the 12 months of 2010, that would be too exhausting and boring. A few events do stand out out of the rest, and let me start last summer.
Honestly, I was not prepared for what is to come on May of 2010. I wasn't exactly happy in my job but it was, as I say to myself better than nothing - and for that period of time I was also experiencing a detached feeling on what I do best (or so I think I do best which involves tinkering computer codes). I wasn't exactly happy but settled and I was not looking for anything to spike my interest either.
Looking at it now, in retrospect, I guess it was time for me to rev up my skills. I was axed - almost a year after I was hired. I was shocked at first, may have undergone the 5 stages of grief.
Denial. "It is good and besides I don't need this company".
Anger. "The company's profit is on the high! Why us?! Management should be at fault!"
Bargaining. "I know I will be out of work, can I at least have this monitor?"
Depression. "Im useless, my skills are all worn out. I will not get any good jobs now. Sleep. Laze around. 3 months of being unproductive."
Acceptance. "I will pass my resume around and apply for that programmer job. Review."
Yes, I have undergone all those emotions, it was a roller-coaster ride so to speak. But August 2010 tote a light in the darkened tunnel brought about by the business decision of my previous employer that made me and 80+ co employees jobless.
The summer of 2010 also brought me to new places. Let's start with the undeniable "it" place for summer beach getaway - BORACAY!
My Ideyatech friends bought our tickets month prior due to a SALE promo from PAL. Boracay has always been in my bucket list of places to visit - but is not a priority since I imagine it as super expensive because of all the hype and the press it gets and how luxurious it is.
And yes, luxurious it is! The perfect natural white sand shore that stretches island-long. The beauty and the scene of it is just completely paradise here on earth. I enjoyed my stay in Bora. Not to mention that I spent not a great deal, thanks to my frugal friends who doesn't surrender in finding the best deals for a cheap spend.
At the tail end of the summer, I went out with multiple groups. I only know one or two persons from each of these groups because I was just so eager to go to the places they are going to visit that I risk being "OP (out of place)". But I managed, and instead become "FC (feeling close)" to them.
Camotes with the Tamiya peeps. Camotes is another popular destination that is so near home that I always put it at the back of my head. I was just so happy to be invited by my former highschool classmate. The beaches there, I can say hold a lot of potential, is maybe at par with Boracay's if it is to be developed and maintained properly. There are many attractions and sites that can be explored - caves, the different resorts, souvenirs, lakes - to name some.
Bohol with MTM peeps. I was invited by another former classmate from highschool. She was also invited by her friend, whose boyfriend works at MTM (technically I am a 3rd degree invitee). But my the powers of FC with me, it was a nice and memorable experience. I've been to Bohol many times, but my goal for this particular visit is not to tour but to experience the extreme! Zipline and Plunge at Danao Bohol adventure park.
The experience of being dropped 200 meters down a cliff is just so mind blowing and scary that I just have to do it - one tick off from my bucket list. One minute ride on the zipline feels like an eternity when you look down and feel like you are going to fall with just a small movement made. It is a hair raising experience so to speak.
Snorkeling and island hopping with Wipro. The only thing that I love being with this group is that they are so into accounting and always looking for the best deals without compromising the experience.
The rainy days came, but the heat didn't really disappear. It's always sunny and the rainy days that did came was forgettable. Nothing Ondoy worthy to remember about and Im not complaining.
With the rain came rejuvenation.
Renewed hope.
Great potential to be someone I used to know.
The Gadgets.
Buying gadgets that I like is not an easy task. For me with a limited financial resources I have to think twice, thrice, a multitude of times before deciding that I will buy such gadgets.
Because I was hooked to running this year, I bought an ipod touch 4th gen with the Nike+ sensor. It records the distance ran and also saves the history of my runs and I can upload my records to their website. It's a nice feeling to view the history ran overtime. Also this gadget is good for reading ebooks and listening to audiobook and music. It has many purpose except for a cellphone - we have an iphone for that (but I dont have it, its way to expensive for me).
My canon ixus has been with me for 3 years and it served me well. I need to upgrade from a point and shoot camera to something with more manual controls. I was initially looking at the micro four thirds system dSLR but was taken away by Sony's NEX5 system. It may not have all the dSLR functionality but it does have what I need. It takes better pictures too compared to my point and shoot, and has interchangeable lens.
Family.
It was me who left for a year to Manila in 2008, now my sister left for Australia. We may have lost a sister but we also welcomed a new member of our family, my niece Chacha born October 3. We are a growing family if I may say so. My youngest sister is having her husband and 2 children stay at our house. I may not agree with that setup but I am not in the position to say anything since I am not the owner of this house, my parents are.
Family drama is kept to a minimum this year because everyone is busy with their day to day affairs and leaves little time for each member of the family to really get together and speak their minds or air their issues towards the other members. It is good if not bland.
To end this rather long blog, is a prayer.
Lord, thank you for being with me and my family and friends this year as you always do each and every year. I just want to thank you for all the blessings especially the learning that you showered to us. It is with great humility to ask, but what I do ask is that you will continue to bless us and protect us, Lord.
P.S I completed the 9 Misa de Gallo this year! Cheers!
I will not enumerate one by one what happened in the 12 months of 2010, that would be too exhausting and boring. A few events do stand out out of the rest, and let me start last summer.
Honestly, I was not prepared for what is to come on May of 2010. I wasn't exactly happy in my job but it was, as I say to myself better than nothing - and for that period of time I was also experiencing a detached feeling on what I do best (or so I think I do best which involves tinkering computer codes). I wasn't exactly happy but settled and I was not looking for anything to spike my interest either.
Looking at it now, in retrospect, I guess it was time for me to rev up my skills. I was axed - almost a year after I was hired. I was shocked at first, may have undergone the 5 stages of grief.
Denial. "It is good and besides I don't need this company".
Anger. "The company's profit is on the high! Why us?! Management should be at fault!"
Bargaining. "I know I will be out of work, can I at least have this monitor?"
Depression. "Im useless, my skills are all worn out. I will not get any good jobs now. Sleep. Laze around. 3 months of being unproductive."
Acceptance. "I will pass my resume around and apply for that programmer job. Review."
Yes, I have undergone all those emotions, it was a roller-coaster ride so to speak. But August 2010 tote a light in the darkened tunnel brought about by the business decision of my previous employer that made me and 80+ co employees jobless.
The summer of 2010 also brought me to new places. Let's start with the undeniable "it" place for summer beach getaway - BORACAY!
My Ideyatech friends bought our tickets month prior due to a SALE promo from PAL. Boracay has always been in my bucket list of places to visit - but is not a priority since I imagine it as super expensive because of all the hype and the press it gets and how luxurious it is.
And yes, luxurious it is! The perfect natural white sand shore that stretches island-long. The beauty and the scene of it is just completely paradise here on earth. I enjoyed my stay in Bora. Not to mention that I spent not a great deal, thanks to my frugal friends who doesn't surrender in finding the best deals for a cheap spend.
At the tail end of the summer, I went out with multiple groups. I only know one or two persons from each of these groups because I was just so eager to go to the places they are going to visit that I risk being "OP (out of place)". But I managed, and instead become "FC (feeling close)" to them.
Camotes with the Tamiya peeps. Camotes is another popular destination that is so near home that I always put it at the back of my head. I was just so happy to be invited by my former highschool classmate. The beaches there, I can say hold a lot of potential, is maybe at par with Boracay's if it is to be developed and maintained properly. There are many attractions and sites that can be explored - caves, the different resorts, souvenirs, lakes - to name some.
Bohol with MTM peeps. I was invited by another former classmate from highschool. She was also invited by her friend, whose boyfriend works at MTM (technically I am a 3rd degree invitee). But my the powers of FC with me, it was a nice and memorable experience. I've been to Bohol many times, but my goal for this particular visit is not to tour but to experience the extreme! Zipline and Plunge at Danao Bohol adventure park.
The experience of being dropped 200 meters down a cliff is just so mind blowing and scary that I just have to do it - one tick off from my bucket list. One minute ride on the zipline feels like an eternity when you look down and feel like you are going to fall with just a small movement made. It is a hair raising experience so to speak.
Snorkeling and island hopping with Wipro. The only thing that I love being with this group is that they are so into accounting and always looking for the best deals without compromising the experience.
The rainy days came, but the heat didn't really disappear. It's always sunny and the rainy days that did came was forgettable. Nothing Ondoy worthy to remember about and Im not complaining.
With the rain came rejuvenation.
Renewed hope.
Great potential to be someone I used to know.
The Gadgets.
Buying gadgets that I like is not an easy task. For me with a limited financial resources I have to think twice, thrice, a multitude of times before deciding that I will buy such gadgets.
Because I was hooked to running this year, I bought an ipod touch 4th gen with the Nike+ sensor. It records the distance ran and also saves the history of my runs and I can upload my records to their website. It's a nice feeling to view the history ran overtime. Also this gadget is good for reading ebooks and listening to audiobook and music. It has many purpose except for a cellphone - we have an iphone for that (but I dont have it, its way to expensive for me).
My canon ixus has been with me for 3 years and it served me well. I need to upgrade from a point and shoot camera to something with more manual controls. I was initially looking at the micro four thirds system dSLR but was taken away by Sony's NEX5 system. It may not have all the dSLR functionality but it does have what I need. It takes better pictures too compared to my point and shoot, and has interchangeable lens.
Family.
It was me who left for a year to Manila in 2008, now my sister left for Australia. We may have lost a sister but we also welcomed a new member of our family, my niece Chacha born October 3. We are a growing family if I may say so. My youngest sister is having her husband and 2 children stay at our house. I may not agree with that setup but I am not in the position to say anything since I am not the owner of this house, my parents are.
Family drama is kept to a minimum this year because everyone is busy with their day to day affairs and leaves little time for each member of the family to really get together and speak their minds or air their issues towards the other members. It is good if not bland.
To end this rather long blog, is a prayer.
Lord, thank you for being with me and my family and friends this year as you always do each and every year. I just want to thank you for all the blessings especially the learning that you showered to us. It is with great humility to ask, but what I do ask is that you will continue to bless us and protect us, Lord.
P.S I completed the 9 Misa de Gallo this year! Cheers!
The Day After Christmas
In 2010, the day after Christmas is a Sunday, 25th being a Saturday. It's also a four-day weekend which starts on the 24th and ends on the 27th. The holiday on the 27th is originally a holiday on the 30th which was moved to promote local tourism within the country.
Anyways, Christmas techically has passed and we are now waiting for the New Year! For this Christmas I gave some of my stuffs as gifts- I was short of cash.
First off for my youngest sis is my Canon digicam I have for 3 years. Its LCD screen may already have sunspots, but it still takes good pictures. Besides I also bought a new cam, a sony nex 5.
Next was my ipod shuffle 3rd gen. I already bought an ipod touch which makes it a redundancy and a dust collector. Better given than to sit there and rot or rust. This one is given to my cousin Kynji.
Since Clyde is such a reader, I gave him a boxed set of Pullman's trilogy, His Dark Materials. This collection includes The Golden Compass. I bought this set 3 years ago through Amazon site.
For the rest of my "inaanaks" I just gave them 5 super crispy 20 peso bills.
As for me, I was given a polo shirt from mama.
This Christmas is definitely better than last years'.
Anyways, Christmas techically has passed and we are now waiting for the New Year! For this Christmas I gave some of my stuffs as gifts- I was short of cash.
First off for my youngest sis is my Canon digicam I have for 3 years. Its LCD screen may already have sunspots, but it still takes good pictures. Besides I also bought a new cam, a sony nex 5.
Next was my ipod shuffle 3rd gen. I already bought an ipod touch which makes it a redundancy and a dust collector. Better given than to sit there and rot or rust. This one is given to my cousin Kynji.
Since Clyde is such a reader, I gave him a boxed set of Pullman's trilogy, His Dark Materials. This collection includes The Golden Compass. I bought this set 3 years ago through Amazon site.
For the rest of my "inaanaks" I just gave them 5 super crispy 20 peso bills.
As for me, I was given a polo shirt from mama.
This Christmas is definitely better than last years'.
Sunday, December 19, 2010
A New Season Begins
Yes.
New Year brings with it a rejuvenation kind of feeling that makes me feel and think that I can do anything!
Basing from previous years of life reflection it's better to feel this kind of feeling once in a while than feel hopeless and weary all year long. Even if, basing from the past, this feeling is like an itch - once scratched and in due time will fade - it's better than feel nothing.
So it is with great joy and jubilation that I will continue to write the next chapter of my life. It is not that I was not active in posting pictures, thoughts and even nonsense to this blog - but what Im aiming is to make my writing not just ranting or stress reliever but also something that I can read in the future and will make me understand myself better.
Welcome 2011,Goodbye 2010!
New Year brings with it a rejuvenation kind of feeling that makes me feel and think that I can do anything!
Basing from previous years of life reflection it's better to feel this kind of feeling once in a while than feel hopeless and weary all year long. Even if, basing from the past, this feeling is like an itch - once scratched and in due time will fade - it's better than feel nothing.
So it is with great joy and jubilation that I will continue to write the next chapter of my life. It is not that I was not active in posting pictures, thoughts and even nonsense to this blog - but what Im aiming is to make my writing not just ranting or stress reliever but also something that I can read in the future and will make me understand myself better.
Welcome 2011,Goodbye 2010!
Sunday, December 05, 2010
2010 Round-up
2010 is fast approaching to a close and it's time to have a summary of what went well, wrong, awesome, cool, disappointing...etc
But you have to wait because that's about 26 days from now.
I'm getting it ready and I'm contemplating on buying a new domain for my blog, or move my blog somewhere else.
But you have to wait because that's about 26 days from now.
I'm getting it ready and I'm contemplating on buying a new domain for my blog, or move my blog somewhere else.
Saturday, December 04, 2010
The Villain in Me
I cant contain much longer my anger with my B-i-L. Recently I've heard from the careless whispers of our commune that he is a cheater.
Last night, even in my dreams I wander how to physically, or psychologically torture that bastard. If only in real life I can pull that stunt off.
Maybe I will just burst with the slightest provocation, time will tell.
Last night, even in my dreams I wander how to physically, or psychologically torture that bastard. If only in real life I can pull that stunt off.
Maybe I will just burst with the slightest provocation, time will tell.
Friday, December 03, 2010
Christmas Party 2010
Company Christmas Party
Tomorrow, Dec 4 or techically later at 6pm, will be my first ever Christmas party with my new company - let's call company N. I've been with company N for almost four months now, and I can say that I have made acquintances with the other employees.
It's just dissappointing to witness these really skilled people leaving the company. But I guess that's the nature of this job because I may still be jobless had no one ever resigned.
Anyways back to the event. All I know is that this year's event is bigger than the previous years. There are items to be raffled out and Im secretly praying to win some, since I am quite lucky with raffle draws.
Im wearing the maroon long sleeves I bought back in Christmas party 2008 - also worn in Christmas party 2008 - when I was still in Manila. I will not wear the tux with it since nobody's wearing a tux anyway (I guess).
Im also part of the group presentation. Woe will be rendering the hand sign interpretation of the hugely popular Christian song "I am yours".
And who would forget the food? There has been many testimonies that the food in Marco Polo is good! - but I will rest my case in the momwnt I have tasted them.
Nex-5 will be usable for tomorrow's event!
That's all and I will sleep.
Tomorrow, Dec 4 or techically later at 6pm, will be my first ever Christmas party with my new company - let's call company N. I've been with company N for almost four months now, and I can say that I have made acquintances with the other employees.
It's just dissappointing to witness these really skilled people leaving the company. But I guess that's the nature of this job because I may still be jobless had no one ever resigned.
Anyways back to the event. All I know is that this year's event is bigger than the previous years. There are items to be raffled out and Im secretly praying to win some, since I am quite lucky with raffle draws.
Im wearing the maroon long sleeves I bought back in Christmas party 2008 - also worn in Christmas party 2008 - when I was still in Manila. I will not wear the tux with it since nobody's wearing a tux anyway (I guess).
Im also part of the group presentation. Woe will be rendering the hand sign interpretation of the hugely popular Christian song "I am yours".
And who would forget the food? There has been many testimonies that the food in Marco Polo is good! - but I will rest my case in the momwnt I have tasted them.
Nex-5 will be usable for tomorrow's event!
That's all and I will sleep.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
The Holiday
Yes, an unexpected holiday is coming this Tuesday.
"Al Adha" is one of the greatest feast of the Islam community and since the president signed it already it means - NO WORK for the most of us!
December is quickly coming and our company is "forcing" us to render vacation leaves starting December 22 (and for those who doesn't yet have VL, credits are given which will be paid when you have VL credits available).
Also on December 11 onwards, up until January of 2011 will be a BIG test on my capability to handle this project on my own since my partner and expert on this project will be having her vacation in Europe. Good luck to me (and I need it!).
Company Christmas party will be on Dec. 4, a non-working Saturday, and I will be part of IDLE HANDZ group that will present on a Showtime-like program along with my POSI teammates.
Dec 10 overnight until Dec 11 noon, will be the Christmas party of the POSI team.
Dec 11 will be the Christmas party with my SPEDmates.
Wow I think I need to jog twice as much with all those food coming!
"Al Adha" is one of the greatest feast of the Islam community and since the president signed it already it means - NO WORK for the most of us!
December is quickly coming and our company is "forcing" us to render vacation leaves starting December 22 (and for those who doesn't yet have VL, credits are given which will be paid when you have VL credits available).
Also on December 11 onwards, up until January of 2011 will be a BIG test on my capability to handle this project on my own since my partner and expert on this project will be having her vacation in Europe. Good luck to me (and I need it!).
Company Christmas party will be on Dec. 4, a non-working Saturday, and I will be part of IDLE HANDZ group that will present on a Showtime-like program along with my POSI teammates.
Dec 10 overnight until Dec 11 noon, will be the Christmas party of the POSI team.
Dec 11 will be the Christmas party with my SPEDmates.
Wow I think I need to jog twice as much with all those food coming!
November Mid-month
It's not yet technically the mid-month day, but its 2 days near it.
Anyways, our house smells paint.
The color my mother decided to paint the front of our house is a bright pink and blue, essentially making our house look like a preschool.
Im supposed to do some extra programming for my part time job, which I lately ignored (and I know I will be sorry for this in the future), but I cant work, didn't, because of the paint smell and it was unusually HOT today. November is supposed to be windy or a stormy month, but today it is cloudless blue super hot day.
On the upside though, I ran (more aptly slow jog) because my left knee injury is still making me uncomfortable. Also I feel pain on my lower right chest, or sometimes on my left abdomen when I push myself to not slow down after 3 rounds of the oval (one round is approx. 400m). I walk when I feel pain and continue a jogging pace after the pain subsides.
It seems that the next few remaining days of November will quickly unravel as most people anticipate Christmas.
Anyways, our house smells paint.
The color my mother decided to paint the front of our house is a bright pink and blue, essentially making our house look like a preschool.
Im supposed to do some extra programming for my part time job, which I lately ignored (and I know I will be sorry for this in the future), but I cant work, didn't, because of the paint smell and it was unusually HOT today. November is supposed to be windy or a stormy month, but today it is cloudless blue super hot day.
On the upside though, I ran (more aptly slow jog) because my left knee injury is still making me uncomfortable. Also I feel pain on my lower right chest, or sometimes on my left abdomen when I push myself to not slow down after 3 rounds of the oval (one round is approx. 400m). I walk when I feel pain and continue a jogging pace after the pain subsides.
It seems that the next few remaining days of November will quickly unravel as most people anticipate Christmas.
Friday, November 05, 2010
Random
Performed code coverage using DevPartner on our project. It's a nifty tool to know what parts of your code is frequently being accessed. We are doing this for documentation purposes on our project.
Another officemate's last day, and she only stayed for 5 months.
Invited by Leigh for a free dinner at Mooon cafe IT Park. It's a little treat and I ordered pork sisig! Yummy!
I went to SM to supposedly buy the case for my iPod touch, but when I got to the store, there's no more stocks. So I went on and bought the multiple audio out extension, so that many earphones can plugin on my iPod at once. Also bought some jogging shorts and dri-fit shirt.
As I was going home, when I stepped down from the jeep near the capitol area, it rained!
Good that there was a taxi and I was able to come home wet-free.
What a long day.
Another officemate's last day, and she only stayed for 5 months.
Invited by Leigh for a free dinner at Mooon cafe IT Park. It's a little treat and I ordered pork sisig! Yummy!
I went to SM to supposedly buy the case for my iPod touch, but when I got to the store, there's no more stocks. So I went on and bought the multiple audio out extension, so that many earphones can plugin on my iPod at once. Also bought some jogging shorts and dri-fit shirt.
As I was going home, when I stepped down from the jeep near the capitol area, it rained!
Good that there was a taxi and I was able to come home wet-free.
What a long day.
Tuesday, November 02, 2010
2011 It's Going to Happen!
I've had a blog entry before (I'm too lazy to look it up) where I posted the places I wanted to visit and I think I've been to most of those places.
Now a new year is coming, and it's coming fast, I want to list things that I wanted to have, and places I wanted to visit, and other things I can think of, for the next year (or if promos permits, sooner).
Places:
Tuguegarao-Banaue (Sagada)
Batanes
HK/Macau
SG
Things:
dSLR
PC/23-inch LED monitor
Smartphone
Skills:
programming (become better in any languages I know)
enterpreneurial (business!!!, I've had an idea but I dont know if its viable)
natural language (Japanese?)
And it seemed I have a wishlist ready for 2011. Yay!
Now a new year is coming, and it's coming fast, I want to list things that I wanted to have, and places I wanted to visit, and other things I can think of, for the next year (or if promos permits, sooner).
Places:
Tuguegarao-Banaue (Sagada)
Batanes
HK/Macau
SG
Things:
dSLR
PC/23-inch LED monitor
Smartphone
Skills:
programming (become better in any languages I know)
enterpreneurial (business!!!, I've had an idea but I dont know if its viable)
natural language (Japanese?)
And it seemed I have a wishlist ready for 2011. Yay!
Monday, October 25, 2010
Baranggay Election 2010
No work today, baranggay elections.
I did not cast my vote, it seemed useless.
I dont have any particular candidate I like and it seemed, at least to me, that this ruckus is just a waste of our taxes.
More politicians, less to no service.
Fatalistic? Yes.
Hopeless? Quite.
Solutions? Can't think of any.
I did not cast my vote, it seemed useless.
I dont have any particular candidate I like and it seemed, at least to me, that this ruckus is just a waste of our taxes.
More politicians, less to no service.
Fatalistic? Yes.
Hopeless? Quite.
Solutions? Can't think of any.
Untitled
I have a major major problem right now. It's not really my problem because Im not directly involved, but since its somewhat connected to me, Im bothered.
That son of a b*tch brother-in-law of mine! The nerve! He had done absolutely minimal supervision in the raising of his son, and now that they have a newly born daughter doesn't even, in my opinion, give effort in helping take care of her, raises my blood pressure.
I must say time is ticking fast when I will be confronting him, so please help me God.
That son of a b*tch brother-in-law of mine! The nerve! He had done absolutely minimal supervision in the raising of his son, and now that they have a newly born daughter doesn't even, in my opinion, give effort in helping take care of her, raises my blood pressure.
I must say time is ticking fast when I will be confronting him, so please help me God.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
The Birthday Blog 10202010
Before I start this year, you maybe interested to read last year's birthday blog here: http://dwightto.blogspot.com/2009/10/27.html
So first things first, I've scrapped the how old (or young) I am from the title. Maybe its not about adding one to your years but adding a multitude of experiences to yourself which is important.
The next thing I realized is that this is the 3rd year that Im celebrating it with new officemates, 2 yrs ago it was with Ideyatech, last year with Playtech and now with NCR. Which is to say that I've been in 3 companies for the past 3 years! It's not like I'm job hopping, circumstances beyond my control is mainly the reason for such jumps. But I'm not complaining universe! I'm just stating a fact.
Aside from new work, studies are not progressing yet. Ive delayed to fulfill my masters in education because of financial matters. I may continue it next year if I have the chance, the time and the money.
Family is ok, though we are not anymore complete because my sister has left for Australia to get married and live there for good. But we welcomed a new member of our family, a new baby girl from my youngest sister. Aren't babies the cutest beings of all (and also smells good).
Even though I was laid off from work this year (my first ever) it's still a good year. I paid my insurance, bills, and most important of all gone to Bora! Yes the most popular island in the Philippines-checked!
Ahh,this fact just springs to mind, most of my batcmates in highschool and in college are either in a committed (and hopefully loving) relationship or married (or those states past marriage), or have babies. Im just totally happy for them for their courage to take on new roles and responsibility, kudos to them!
Celebration? I didn't treat my officemates because I am still shy and doesnt have that rapport to all of them save a few. At home, I asked my aunt to cook buttered chicken and sweet and sour pork for dinner. I also bought ice cream.
I also attended Epson's web team farewell party at Zao and met my previous bridge engineer to say my thanks in the years that I was working in Epson.
Well I guess that's it for now. Maybe next year the universe will cook up something good for me.
Enjoying my day, ahhh it's already night.
So first things first, I've scrapped the how old (or young) I am from the title. Maybe its not about adding one to your years but adding a multitude of experiences to yourself which is important.
The next thing I realized is that this is the 3rd year that Im celebrating it with new officemates, 2 yrs ago it was with Ideyatech, last year with Playtech and now with NCR. Which is to say that I've been in 3 companies for the past 3 years! It's not like I'm job hopping, circumstances beyond my control is mainly the reason for such jumps. But I'm not complaining universe! I'm just stating a fact.
Aside from new work, studies are not progressing yet. Ive delayed to fulfill my masters in education because of financial matters. I may continue it next year if I have the chance, the time and the money.
Family is ok, though we are not anymore complete because my sister has left for Australia to get married and live there for good. But we welcomed a new member of our family, a new baby girl from my youngest sister. Aren't babies the cutest beings of all (and also smells good).
Even though I was laid off from work this year (my first ever) it's still a good year. I paid my insurance, bills, and most important of all gone to Bora! Yes the most popular island in the Philippines-checked!
Ahh,this fact just springs to mind, most of my batcmates in highschool and in college are either in a committed (and hopefully loving) relationship or married (or those states past marriage), or have babies. Im just totally happy for them for their courage to take on new roles and responsibility, kudos to them!
Celebration? I didn't treat my officemates because I am still shy and doesnt have that rapport to all of them save a few. At home, I asked my aunt to cook buttered chicken and sweet and sour pork for dinner. I also bought ice cream.
I also attended Epson's web team farewell party at Zao and met my previous bridge engineer to say my thanks in the years that I was working in Epson.
Well I guess that's it for now. Maybe next year the universe will cook up something good for me.
Enjoying my day, ahhh it's already night.
Monday, October 18, 2010
The Day After Tomorrow
Finally was able to create my first build! For those who doesn't know what a build is and cares, it's packaging your sourcodes or updates thereof for delivery to your clients as a fix to discovered bugs (or tars as they are referred to here).
It was not perfect, I have to perform it as many as three times because there were errors that I encountered along the way. And building the source code takes an enormous amount of time because it is a really big system.
I was not able to jog because my computer teased me, and I need to reboot it twice because the POS software won't start correctly. The weather is also gloomy with hints that at any moment rain will fell in torrents.
Just when I was leaving, we had conversation with some officemates and I realized in retrospect that for every company I've been, there are pros and cons. You either have a good salary but high expenses, or too much work. In the end we came to agree that it is important to have even little incentives just to make people anticipate and not think ofliving leaving the company.
But it all boils down that the day after tomorrow is my natal day.
It was not perfect, I have to perform it as many as three times because there were errors that I encountered along the way. And building the source code takes an enormous amount of time because it is a really big system.
I was not able to jog because my computer teased me, and I need to reboot it twice because the POS software won't start correctly. The weather is also gloomy with hints that at any moment rain will fell in torrents.
Just when I was leaving, we had conversation with some officemates and I realized in retrospect that for every company I've been, there are pros and cons. You either have a good salary but high expenses, or too much work. In the end we came to agree that it is important to have even little incentives just to make people anticipate and not think of
But it all boils down that the day after tomorrow is my natal day.
Saturday, October 09, 2010
The Jogs
Recently I have been committing myself to jog at least every Saturday, and if schedule and weather permits also on Wednesdays. I also try to walk the one and a half kilometer distance from the capitol to our house instead of riding the jeepney.
The reason is because I wanted to have endurance. To have the lung power to withstand long aerobic activities such as long distance walking, jogging, running and a flight of stairs. Even if I'm relatively skinny, I easily tire and caught myself catching my breath.
That was the motivating factor why I now placed priority to this jogging activity weekly. So far so good, I haven't yet skipped a single Saturday since I started. Having a gadget to track your workout distance, pace and time adds motivation to not skip the activity.
It's only been half a month since I started and I can already feel the difference. I feel lighter, in posture, and most importantly feels happy because of all those endorphines the body supposedly releases everytime you exercise.
I hope that I can keep up with this activity for a long time since I really like to be in the healthier side of things.
The reason is because I wanted to have endurance. To have the lung power to withstand long aerobic activities such as long distance walking, jogging, running and a flight of stairs. Even if I'm relatively skinny, I easily tire and caught myself catching my breath.
That was the motivating factor why I now placed priority to this jogging activity weekly. So far so good, I haven't yet skipped a single Saturday since I started. Having a gadget to track your workout distance, pace and time adds motivation to not skip the activity.
It's only been half a month since I started and I can already feel the difference. I feel lighter, in posture, and most importantly feels happy because of all those endorphines the body supposedly releases everytime you exercise.
I hope that I can keep up with this activity for a long time since I really like to be in the healthier side of things.
Sunday, October 03, 2010
This Sunday
Don't expect rewards on doing things you are intended to do.
The priest continued his sermon telling the parents not to treat their children as a piece of investment. Raising your children, sending them to school, feeding them are things that are expected to be done by parents and should not be treated as sort of debt to be repaid by their children in the future.
This also goes to the children, that doing household chores - that they should not charge for those things as it should be their share of responsibility.
That's what the priest said in his sermon.
In my mind comes another realization. Everything we do, it should come as an internal decision. We help not because it is expected for us, but because deep inside we want to help. We do things that are interesting to us. There is no greater motivation than doing things you like to begin with - save the illegal things.
God bless peeps.
The priest continued his sermon telling the parents not to treat their children as a piece of investment. Raising your children, sending them to school, feeding them are things that are expected to be done by parents and should not be treated as sort of debt to be repaid by their children in the future.
This also goes to the children, that doing household chores - that they should not charge for those things as it should be their share of responsibility.
That's what the priest said in his sermon.
In my mind comes another realization. Everything we do, it should come as an internal decision. We help not because it is expected for us, but because deep inside we want to help. We do things that are interesting to us. There is no greater motivation than doing things you like to begin with - save the illegal things.
God bless peeps.
Saturday, October 02, 2010
Quick
Because I had a beer on a Thursday, and went late.
Friday comes and I woke up at 8.
It's automatic, the reflexes, to wake.
Dress up, brush, no bathe.
Friday comes and I woke up at 8.
It's automatic, the reflexes, to wake.
Dress up, brush, no bathe.
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