That

Sometimes we have to make difficult decisions. It's just a  part of life to make one at least a dozen times, right? Who doesn't? I don't know one that didn't. Rich, poor, educated, street smarts - ALL of us had made one. And today I have to make one - a really difficult one.

Ok, not to tease or something, let's rewind a little, back a few uncertain years ago, when the world is just this beautiful place (at least a beautiful place in my memory) - simple, ignorant but blissful. The world when I was still on - my diapers (were diapers already in existence back then?) ok not that past please. A little forward in time, ok steady, a little more adjustment... to this particular time. 

I was young, tall, not so dark, and definitely... never-mind. I was walking when suddenly I fell, on my knees, in the pavement of, wait a minute, a mall. You can just imagine my embarrassed face as I try to get up and seeing all those people's judgmental look. I can imagine cartoon character's dialog bubble over their heads with "Klutz", "Hahahaha...", "What happen?" labels dangling. So I fell, what's the big deal?

I went on straight to what I need to buy that day. A stuffed toy. For a friend. Ok for the "that" girl. 

More memories are coming in while I'm writing this, on this rainy evening. Continuing...

 So I went into the store, sorted through their merchandise, checking the size, color and "feel" but most importantly - the price. I just wanted to have the perfect stuff for a perfect price. Nah, I just don't have enough money back then (and until now, but I digress). 

I have this nice little fluffy thing on my hand, and as I was walking towards the cashier I realized that I left my wallet (wait I don't have a wallet even before) - I mean I don't have enough money to buy it. Out of personal embarrassment and hoping that the sales lady did not notice me dropping out of the line, I quietly left the store.

But I still need to give something to "that" girl. It was her birthday and I have to give her something. We will be meeting at the mall about an hour that day and I just have to give her something. I tried my luck, and being poor on probability theory I gambled on the toy grabber machine (I don't know the exact name, it's that machine where you drop a coin and the claws move and you try to grab a toy and drop it in the pit) - and I lost. 

I don't only have lesser money than what I already had, I still didn't have a gift for "that" girl.

The time came that we meet and I was not ready to tell her about the crazy thing I did just to give her a gift, so I just bought her a sundae and that made "that" girl smile. It was awesome, the feeling of being smiled at - honestly I don't remember the feeling, but it must be just awesome.

And for those who maybe asking who "that" girl is, you can guess, but I wont tell. And it's probably not who you think, remember the timeline?

Back to that difficult decision I have to make now, which is more delicious Balamban liempo or Sr. Pedro? I have to pick a favorite and my stomach can't decide.