Signals

Maybe because I choose to interpret them as such, that I feel it is the signal I'm waiting for.

One of my best-est friend who is working in SG came home for some preparations of her wedding this coming March and I've shared with her my intention to also, finally after all these years of attempts, go and find work there. She said that the economy is still shaky, but in my opinion the economy these days are all shaky with the Europe debt crisis, the American banking crisis and all the other unexpected crisis springing from natural disasters that seems much more common these days.

During breakfast, I unexpectedly met my aunt who is already working there and is convincing me to go there. Saying that I have a brighter future and that I can find a good job there. It is a random event that makes it more believable that the universe is telling me something, or is it?

And almost everyday I get a message from Linkedin from employers or agencies asking for my updated CV. I'm ignoring them for now because I don't want to decide because there is an offer, I want to base my decision because I have decided to go.

I will be renewing my passport within this week even though it still is valid for a year, but because my aunt who has some connection in DFA will get one, I readily ask her to take me with her so that I can renew my passport.

Am I decided? Honestly not yet. When I left for Manila 4 yrs ago, I was filled with the enthusiasm and courage and just heading there without much thinking and worry, I just kind of did. Now, I'm full of what ifs, what would I do, what... I'm so confused to decide.

There is at least 2 months for the passport to be renewed, that would give me time. Then there is the wedding I should attend on March so that would also give me a no go. The earliest time if I should leave is on April and the latest is June. If by June I'm still undecided then 2012 is still Philippine bound, I guess, unless there is a drastic need to really be somewhere foreign.

Why do I need to be in SG? Let me count.

First is the experience to work internationally, an OFW officially! What does it feel to be working with other nationalities in a country not your own? It is exciting to think and challenging. If my horizons widened from Cebu to Manila, how much more from Philippines to SG!

Second and the most important thing is that I need to save! The Philippines is not really a good place to build fortunes if your skills is not entrepreneurial, and sadly I belong to that category of being an employee and paid monthly. The tax system in this country is 35% from your salary, then taxed on almost all aspect from food, clothing, entertainment, etc.! I will not be complaining this much if by the time I'm jobless or needing government support, the government will care to care because I was giving them money from all those years of working, but no, the government will just leave you to rot! And these politicians! I don't want to get started on these corrupt politicians, all I can say is that they are ALL crappy and shameless!

I need to have a place to call my own, that is the biggest mover for me. As I'm entering another decade of my life, I looked back and all I have is this insurance that I'm halfway through. It is not enough! I need to buy a place to call home until the day I live this earth (hopefully a long, long time from now).

So I crossed my fingers and praying in silence that if when I decide, it is the right decision on the right direction.