As always, the last post was me being broke, and now this post is me being broke again. It's no fun but I'm just going to write about it than stress myself out thinking how to get out of this self-recession.
Sweldo came in just now and I dutifully paid my 2 credit cards, and telephone bill. What's left is a number divided by 15 and the result? 300 pesos per day. What happened to the days I can incessantly go to the malls and watch movies, splurge on techy devices, eat anything I want. Now. Gone.
I miss those days I can just go anywhere else without worrying if I'm breaking my budget. I don't even worry about money - before! Now, I even caution myself not to go the malls because it is very easy to spend when you are surrounded by beautiful and yummy things. Sigh.
A part time job that is not so stressful and not so tasking is all I need to correct this budget deficit I am currently encountering. But what part time job will make me at least 3000 a month? I can go for online work but I'm not quite sure what type of services I can offer, like web programming or anything.
Maybe on the next sweldo I can breathe a little more than this month because finally I already paid my 20k PC purchase last February. I hope so, or I'll be dammed.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Broke
I realize that Im always broke nowadays. From the moment I stopped earning extra from my part time job last January, I now feel the pinch. Im always out of money and my supposedly "savings" account that is for savings (duh?!) and insurance money is continually being used as an emergency fund. This is definitely not a good sign of financial health.
My current job pays decent. I just got a raise but Im not feeling the effect because I opted to have 10% of my earnings go automatically to a fund. I cant get out of it yet or I can resign and get my money -but that's a decision I will not make soon.
How about finding another part time job? This always comes to mind, but I dont know, I dont have the energy to pursue finding one. Im not thrilled to do web developing too- I just want to sleep and travel and be out under the sun.
The travels, I agree I had many and its just half of the year! But to make it clear, those travels are comparably cheap than the travels I've had in the past. They are all within Cebu province and one Bohol-but even that Bohol trip is budget friendly so to speak.
Gadgets. Let me think, the last one that broke my wallet is my 20k desktop PC. But it's worth it because I'm using it as my work PC at home, which currently is just my downloading station and social networking pc.
I totally hate being in this state of money-less. Its sad to note that money literally is a figure of speech and that you only see it but not feel it.
Money money money in a poor man's world - is indeed a treasure and by treasure I mean rare.
My current job pays decent. I just got a raise but Im not feeling the effect because I opted to have 10% of my earnings go automatically to a fund. I cant get out of it yet or I can resign and get my money -but that's a decision I will not make soon.
How about finding another part time job? This always comes to mind, but I dont know, I dont have the energy to pursue finding one. Im not thrilled to do web developing too- I just want to sleep and travel and be out under the sun.
The travels, I agree I had many and its just half of the year! But to make it clear, those travels are comparably cheap than the travels I've had in the past. They are all within Cebu province and one Bohol-but even that Bohol trip is budget friendly so to speak.
Gadgets. Let me think, the last one that broke my wallet is my 20k desktop PC. But it's worth it because I'm using it as my work PC at home, which currently is just my downloading station and social networking pc.
I totally hate being in this state of money-less. Its sad to note that money literally is a figure of speech and that you only see it but not feel it.
Money money money in a poor man's world - is indeed a treasure and by treasure I mean rare.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Uninspired
It is the lenten season. Four days of weekend.
Times have changed, when I was a kid, I remember being told not to get out of the house because the "hudeyos" will come and get kids. There is also caution on being wounded because it will not heal. Binignit is cooked after hearing the 7 last words of Jesus. And most of all no more bathing after 3pm on Good Friday.
Stores were closed and there is little to no programming on tv and radios - or if there were only those of religious nature.
Now? Some stations offer reruns of their soap operas and or movies that doesnt really fit "religious". The entertainment variety show arm of the networks are in day off because most of their actors and actresses are lounging in the beach or outside the country for their much needed beauty vacations. Binignit is still cooked though and most malls offer half-day to no work on some days.
For the common household like ours, the internet is at its peak of use. With all the members of the family at home, bandwidth is at an all time high. There is only an occassional lull moment but it is a far cry from the nothing-todo era of the bygone decades.
Like Christmas, I've lost the feeling of the Lenten season- it just become another holiday that gives us a couple of extra days away from work. I would like to do some religious activity but my cousins are not "game" and it is tiring to just go to a religious place alone without transportation.
I wonder what it might have been years ago in the time of my grandparents where tv and the internet is virtually non existent. How would they spend the days, those very hot summer days?
It is a question some can answer because they still have their grandparents to ask, but for me it would be forever a question.
Times have changed, when I was a kid, I remember being told not to get out of the house because the "hudeyos" will come and get kids. There is also caution on being wounded because it will not heal. Binignit is cooked after hearing the 7 last words of Jesus. And most of all no more bathing after 3pm on Good Friday.
Stores were closed and there is little to no programming on tv and radios - or if there were only those of religious nature.
Now? Some stations offer reruns of their soap operas and or movies that doesnt really fit "religious". The entertainment variety show arm of the networks are in day off because most of their actors and actresses are lounging in the beach or outside the country for their much needed beauty vacations. Binignit is still cooked though and most malls offer half-day to no work on some days.
For the common household like ours, the internet is at its peak of use. With all the members of the family at home, bandwidth is at an all time high. There is only an occassional lull moment but it is a far cry from the nothing-todo era of the bygone decades.
Like Christmas, I've lost the feeling of the Lenten season- it just become another holiday that gives us a couple of extra days away from work. I would like to do some religious activity but my cousins are not "game" and it is tiring to just go to a religious place alone without transportation.
I wonder what it might have been years ago in the time of my grandparents where tv and the internet is virtually non existent. How would they spend the days, those very hot summer days?
It is a question some can answer because they still have their grandparents to ask, but for me it would be forever a question.
Friday, April 15, 2011
2 Million Madness
Our company is having this novel idea of raffling (is this a valid word?) 2 million pesos (1.4 million after taxes). Did you miss that? Yeah, 2 million!
I know, crazy right?
Well for me it is. From the very first time I heard the ruckus, I kind of felt shaken and not a good kind of shake. Outright let me say, management is just being lazy with this gimmick!
What would I do if I win this prize? Technically I'm not yet part of the 1st draw this June due to the rule that states "at least one year of service". Anyways, if in the succeeding draws I will win, it would be goodbye company N. Yes, no hesitation, I would take it as a sign from above that its time to move on.
Why such negative feedback to this?
Many. For one the company has 4 million worth of money they can't even sponsor pity (as they say) allowances like a rice, grocery, project allowances that employees can readily consume. Yes the intended purpose of the amount is for the lucky winner can jumpstart owning a house and lot or car.
Yes (count the number of Yeses on this entry, it may reach 2 million, wahahah) they say that salaries are now competitive based on performance and that these pity allowances are now part of the "re-aligned" pay. Im not really sold. But that's beside the point, 4 million a year (divided by approx 500 employees) can do so much to uplift the spirits of a lowly software engineer.
This is just my opinion. Im not protesting because management has already explained the purpose of this "loyalty" program.
As I said I think they're just being lazy. Period.
I know, crazy right?
Well for me it is. From the very first time I heard the ruckus, I kind of felt shaken and not a good kind of shake. Outright let me say, management is just being lazy with this gimmick!
What would I do if I win this prize? Technically I'm not yet part of the 1st draw this June due to the rule that states "at least one year of service". Anyways, if in the succeeding draws I will win, it would be goodbye company N. Yes, no hesitation, I would take it as a sign from above that its time to move on.
Why such negative feedback to this?
Many. For one the company has 4 million worth of money they can't even sponsor pity (as they say) allowances like a rice, grocery, project allowances that employees can readily consume. Yes the intended purpose of the amount is for the lucky winner can jumpstart owning a house and lot or car.
Yes (count the number of Yeses on this entry, it may reach 2 million, wahahah) they say that salaries are now competitive based on performance and that these pity allowances are now part of the "re-aligned" pay. Im not really sold. But that's beside the point, 4 million a year (divided by approx 500 employees) can do so much to uplift the spirits of a lowly software engineer.
This is just my opinion. Im not protesting because management has already explained the purpose of this "loyalty" program.
As I said I think they're just being lazy. Period.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Chat Room
I've been very talkative lately. Ok, to those officemate(s) who will ultimately read this - I'm not the quite person I was when I was newly hired, I admit Im a talker so can we get past that?
It's guilt free, I was doing these pseudo-documentation for my upcoming development, and honestly it doesn't in itself interest me to just sit down and read them and edit them and reread them. Im not that kind of person. Im not a reader, Im a talker. But it's not the case that I ignore them, I do finish them and ask guidance from my manager who by the way is halfway around the world, which means if I send email the reply would be 12 hrs later which translates to "tomorrow".
Also it's guilt free because I am ftp-uploading this gargantuous VM Image file which takes forever.
Reasons. I have many. But the chatter lately is because the topic is so close to the heart, talk about life (love, family, s*x), work, aspirations and dreams. Not to mention occasional topic of places I would like to visit one day.
I know I am paid to work. And it isn't like Im not working, I am.
But Im just slacking a bit and then back to serious work when all these frustrations (not job related) are shared and my mind is clear.
It's guilt free, I was doing these pseudo-documentation for my upcoming development, and honestly it doesn't in itself interest me to just sit down and read them and edit them and reread them. Im not that kind of person. Im not a reader, Im a talker. But it's not the case that I ignore them, I do finish them and ask guidance from my manager who by the way is halfway around the world, which means if I send email the reply would be 12 hrs later which translates to "tomorrow".
Also it's guilt free because I am ftp-uploading this gargantuous VM Image file which takes forever.
Reasons. I have many. But the chatter lately is because the topic is so close to the heart, talk about life (love, family, s*x), work, aspirations and dreams. Not to mention occasional topic of places I would like to visit one day.
I know I am paid to work. And it isn't like Im not working, I am.
But Im just slacking a bit and then back to serious work when all these frustrations (not job related) are shared and my mind is clear.
Friday, April 08, 2011
A Note on Death
Another day to live, to some of us today is an ordinary day. But to the old, to the sickly to those with terminal illness, waking up alive today is another miracle of life.
Somewhere someone celebrates life! A birth of a new baby, a chance of second life, a cure of a disease, a food on their plates. But somewhere someone also grieve for a dear one's life lost.
Death does not follow a pre determined state, and almost always catches us by surprise! It doesnt always follow a predictable path.
I've known a few that bit the dust too soon and unexpectedly. There's my cousin who was shot dead. My uncle who unexpectedly died on his sleep. My other uncle who succumbed to an unknown illness.
That is why I remember a few years back, I promised myself to live life to the most extent that I possibly can. To live by not just breathing but making each breathing moment count.
To live without regret, to always learn and never stop learning. To touch other's lives. To explore the world and not just see it but live it.
Somewhere someone celebrates life! A birth of a new baby, a chance of second life, a cure of a disease, a food on their plates. But somewhere someone also grieve for a dear one's life lost.
Death does not follow a pre determined state, and almost always catches us by surprise! It doesnt always follow a predictable path.
I've known a few that bit the dust too soon and unexpectedly. There's my cousin who was shot dead. My uncle who unexpectedly died on his sleep. My other uncle who succumbed to an unknown illness.
That is why I remember a few years back, I promised myself to live life to the most extent that I possibly can. To live by not just breathing but making each breathing moment count.
To live without regret, to always learn and never stop learning. To touch other's lives. To explore the world and not just see it but live it.
Friday, March 25, 2011
Fairytale
Im in a pool
A frog you must kiss
I may not turn out to the the handsome prince
But let me promise you this, you will be
My one and only princess
I may not have a horse
Or carry a sword
That will protect you from the witch
But let me promise you this, I will be
The one to kiss you when you fall into a deep sleep
Out of the billion
You are my only maiden
That can fill this shoe
You left when we danced
When we danced in the rain
I may not come from a ship
That makes you wish you have feet
My love is as big as the ocean
Let me give up my breath
To be with you beneath
Long hair, red hood, skin white as snow
Doesn't really matter
For they are just skin deep that time can erase
A horse or a noble steed
I have not
Even chariots, or cars I can't even rent
But let me promise you this, we can travel
Together holding hands as long as we have each other
A frog you must kiss
I may not turn out to the the handsome prince
But let me promise you this, you will be
My one and only princess
I may not have a horse
Or carry a sword
That will protect you from the witch
But let me promise you this, I will be
The one to kiss you when you fall into a deep sleep
Out of the billion
You are my only maiden
That can fill this shoe
You left when we danced
When we danced in the rain
I may not come from a ship
That makes you wish you have feet
My love is as big as the ocean
Let me give up my breath
To be with you beneath
Long hair, red hood, skin white as snow
Doesn't really matter
For they are just skin deep that time can erase
A horse or a noble steed
I have not
Even chariots, or cars I can't even rent
But let me promise you this, we can travel
Together holding hands as long as we have each other
How May Times Will It Take?
My intentions are good
But why do it translates to nothingness?
Can I go back
To the moment before I even tried?
Now Im carrying the weight
And I cant barely hold it up
Atlas must felt the same
Holding the sky away from the sand
Should accept that sometimes
The truth hurts, and hurts deep
Cause it may take a hundred lifetimes
For me to finally get it right
Should have get wiser
From each moment that life
Turns to a diffent cheek
But no, sometimes wrong is an adrenaline rush
So the last thing that I can speak
To you that cares
Is a simple sorry
That even me sometimes can't take
Uncertain
How can I go
When my thoughts are peg
On you?
How can I move on
When my inspiration is
Still you?
Can't I run
Away from your shadow
For maybe just awhile
Without losing breath?
Can't I live a day
Without you in my thoughts
That hours seems to stand still
Where every second pierces my health?
Is it really you?
Or am I just imaging an us
Maybe the reality is
You, me but not we
When my thoughts are peg
On you?
How can I move on
When my inspiration is
Still you?
Can't I run
Away from your shadow
For maybe just awhile
Without losing breath?
Can't I live a day
Without you in my thoughts
That hours seems to stand still
Where every second pierces my health?
Is it really you?
Or am I just imaging an us
Maybe the reality is
You, me but not we
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Conspicuous Theory
To say the obvious is an insult to the senses. We are given the faculties of sight, hearing, smell, touch and taste for a reason! That is to USE them.
Like many things unused (examples: appendix, body hairs, wisdom teeth), it is either shrunk, or totally erased in the next iteration of homo sapiens species.
Sometimes I wonder if people use a fare share of the brain power that's been alloted by nature in which they can tap into. Aha! There are times they don't because they let some blood pumping organ do the thinking that's supposed to be done by the neuron-rich member.
Common sense is after all not that common they should be renamed as uncommon sense for those people.
I'm just disappointed because I for one is guilty of not using the common sense that I've been blabbering about. Sometimes I just like to ask and ask unintelligently. It's a part of my charms. But not all the time. Not always. Not in a life-and-death situation. Not in a defining moment of your life or your career. Not in time of making friendships and building teamwork. There are limits. Boundaries. Line.
To end, choose wisely. Don't get carried away by that sudden rise of emotion that shows physically either as a rosy cheek or a tear. You have other faculties you need to take into account rather than that raw feeling that most if not all the time you will regret. Don't be stupid, or more aptly don't be stupid MOST of the time.
Like many things unused (examples: appendix, body hairs, wisdom teeth), it is either shrunk, or totally erased in the next iteration of homo sapiens species.
Sometimes I wonder if people use a fare share of the brain power that's been alloted by nature in which they can tap into. Aha! There are times they don't because they let some blood pumping organ do the thinking that's supposed to be done by the neuron-rich member.
Common sense is after all not that common they should be renamed as uncommon sense for those people.
I'm just disappointed because I for one is guilty of not using the common sense that I've been blabbering about. Sometimes I just like to ask and ask unintelligently. It's a part of my charms. But not all the time. Not always. Not in a life-and-death situation. Not in a defining moment of your life or your career. Not in time of making friendships and building teamwork. There are limits. Boundaries. Line.
To end, choose wisely. Don't get carried away by that sudden rise of emotion that shows physically either as a rosy cheek or a tear. You have other faculties you need to take into account rather than that raw feeling that most if not all the time you will regret. Don't be stupid, or more aptly don't be stupid MOST of the time.
Monday, March 21, 2011
Wish That I Can Honestly Say "I Love You Too
Because it will make the world a better place for you and probably for me too.
Because if that happens all the searching will finally end.
Because when that time comes forever will not be enough.
If I am just being stubborn right now, I wish it would go away.
If I am just blind right now, I wish I will see the light.
If I am just lost, I wish I find the way.
Because if in the future I am destined to be with you and you are gone forever and will never be mine, the universe should be ready for my wrath.
I honestly pray that you will find the one. Right now its not me. If in the future it "may" be me and you are with someone else, read above.
If you are hurt by me, I am more hurt because what kind of person would like to inflict hurt to others? Unless they are enemies, but we are NOT enemies, though right now we are neither friends.
It pains me to know I'm the cause of your pain.
That shouldn't be.
If that's the case then we should probably stop trying to be friends again.
Treat me as your foe.
Hate me.
No! I take that "hate me" phrase back.
You should not hate me because you will still care.
Just altogether ignore and don't care my existence, my presence, me being here.
Let me be extinct in your world.
I am an optimist.
Time heals all wounds and recovers the wounded.
Everything has its time and I deeply pray to my God that one day you will truly forgive me.
And that one day I will forgive myself.
Because if that happens all the searching will finally end.
Because when that time comes forever will not be enough.
If I am just being stubborn right now, I wish it would go away.
If I am just blind right now, I wish I will see the light.
If I am just lost, I wish I find the way.
Because if in the future I am destined to be with you and you are gone forever and will never be mine, the universe should be ready for my wrath.
I honestly pray that you will find the one. Right now its not me. If in the future it "may" be me and you are with someone else, read above.
If you are hurt by me, I am more hurt because what kind of person would like to inflict hurt to others? Unless they are enemies, but we are NOT enemies, though right now we are neither friends.
It pains me to know I'm the cause of your pain.
That shouldn't be.
If that's the case then we should probably stop trying to be friends again.
Treat me as your foe.
Hate me.
No! I take that "hate me" phrase back.
You should not hate me because you will still care.
Just altogether ignore and don't care my existence, my presence, me being here.
Let me be extinct in your world.
I am an optimist.
Time heals all wounds and recovers the wounded.
Everything has its time and I deeply pray to my God that one day you will truly forgive me.
And that one day I will forgive myself.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
March Madness
I'm still sane, don't worry. All faculties checked.
What I'm referring to is the calamity that has happened recently in Japan. That 9.0 magnitude earthquake followed by the tsunami that leveled many towns and that nuclear reactor melting down is sort of maddening. Is the world ending. I don't like to think so.
I wanted to live. Live like until I'm 80 or so. Live to see what the world becomes in 2060's. Are there still computers like we have today or will they be in a new "form"? What would be the killer "app" by then? Will there be a first step on Mars? Things like this makes me want to live longer.
Right now, it seems that the world has many incidents of earthquakes, tsunamis, glacial melting, volcanoes erupting - but according to one online article I read, thats not true. The earth just had "average" occurrences of those events, the problem is that many people are living on these zones that's why the increase in damage. Also that we are now so connected that what happens to an individual who has a twitter account will quickly update their twitter accounts and let know the world.
We should take care of our environment, it's ailing and it needs our help. We should be responsible for each other and that we may pass this Earth to our future generation in a "livable" state.
What I'm referring to is the calamity that has happened recently in Japan. That 9.0 magnitude earthquake followed by the tsunami that leveled many towns and that nuclear reactor melting down is sort of maddening. Is the world ending. I don't like to think so.
I wanted to live. Live like until I'm 80 or so. Live to see what the world becomes in 2060's. Are there still computers like we have today or will they be in a new "form"? What would be the killer "app" by then? Will there be a first step on Mars? Things like this makes me want to live longer.
Right now, it seems that the world has many incidents of earthquakes, tsunamis, glacial melting, volcanoes erupting - but according to one online article I read, thats not true. The earth just had "average" occurrences of those events, the problem is that many people are living on these zones that's why the increase in damage. Also that we are now so connected that what happens to an individual who has a twitter account will quickly update their twitter accounts and let know the world.
We should take care of our environment, it's ailing and it needs our help. We should be responsible for each other and that we may pass this Earth to our future generation in a "livable" state.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Manila, Manila, I keep Coming Back To Manila
The song is in my head! And yes I’m coming back to Manila albeit only for a very short vacation starting this Friday until Sunday! Wohooo!
I planned this trip with my sister last year but had to cancel because the holiday was cancelled by our ever dearest new president Abnoy (oopss, Noynoy I mean).
Aside from my sister I am also with my SpEd classmates but they will be going there earlier than me, we will just meet there when I’m there.
It’s been almost a year since I was in Manila. The last time was last June when I went to Bora and had an extra day to stay. I miss living in Manila, I’m not like everybody else that loathes it. I actually love the place, but not as much as I love my own Cebu City.
Itinerary includes: Ocean Park and EK. Although I’ve been there I’m still thrilled to go there again. I’m sure I’m going to ride the MRT (I miss the MRT) and go to the malls.
Even though it is just a short stay, it’s enough to quench my Manila thirst.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Stuck in a Moment
It’s been a month since I am on this state, “limbo”-like, though I’ve never been to limbo, but I guess limbo is like this. You await for something, knowing that you are waiting for something yet you must do something before that something you await comes… – confusing? My point exactly!
I thought that finally I can stay put on someplace – this place – yet I’m already thinking otherwise.
It’s just some feeling though, I’m not finalizing it yet, and if there’s anything I’ve learned from the past is to NOT be compulsive about my actions and decisions. I promise to myself that I will study and learn as much as I can and weigh the pros and cons of the situation before I make any decisions.
For now I guess I’m just tired of the “beach” outing last weekend that I’m just so low in energy.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
The 3am Blog
Ok so I'm awake this very early, and it is not December for the Misa de Gallo, it is for the beach! Yes the beach, I always wanted to go but because of the weather, the crazy weather, I didn't, but now? Yes!
To what beach? Bantayan island. The last time I was there was like ages ago back in 2005. As I remembered it, it was a beautiful white sandy beach.
I don't know how to swim, but I like to just be on the shoreline watching the waves, the beauty of nature including those that walks. I like to be on the beach because it pauses time away from the razzle dazzle of city life.
I've been standing here and being bitten by mosquitos bit by bit waiting for my ride, where are you newfound acquintance?
So excited already, my camera's gonna love the love!
To what beach? Bantayan island. The last time I was there was like ages ago back in 2005. As I remembered it, it was a beautiful white sandy beach.
I don't know how to swim, but I like to just be on the shoreline watching the waves, the beauty of nature including those that walks. I like to be on the beach because it pauses time away from the razzle dazzle of city life.
I've been standing here and being bitten by mosquitos bit by bit waiting for my ride, where are you newfound acquintance?
So excited already, my camera's gonna love the love!
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Road Block
I am currently in a roadblock. I don’t know where to turn or if I should move in the first place. I’m imagining myself to just be out of my body and see the other side (no! not die but just see the other side). Am I waiting for a good outcome or is waiting a bad idea? My instincts tell me to just do what I can do to get out from this situation and face the consequences of my actions good or bad, and just charge it to experience.
On the other hand, waiting does pose the same amount of risk and consequences as moving.
I’m on the move, so wish me good luck!
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Windows Phone 7 “Atatness”
I know this feeling
The rush and excite it brings
For I know that I wanted
And I wanted it dear
Download increased my thrill
For it is slow as a snail
How can I progress
When the progress bar does not increase?
I already downloaded
Lots of references and
Tutorials, videos, blogs
Name it and its already embedded
Can’t wait for this night
Should post a thing from the emulator
That will make known to the world
Windows Phone is not yet over.
Email Phobia
Recently I noticed that I hate opening my emails, like Yahoo and even my own corporate email account which is one of the first applications I open when I turn-on my office workstation. It’s like I’m afraid that it brings only bad news. I hate bad news, who doesn’t right?
The Truth.
The reason that I hate opening Yahoo emails is that it is the email account where I can be reached by my previous part time job. You see I left it hanging, my status with them, and I have some serious issues to make-up that I don’t have the courage to face them yet. I know it’s kind of cowardly and running away from the problem instead of facing it. The problem is that it’s dragging on and I want to let go, but I’m stuck.
Karma.
Like a chain, now I feel a little mortified when I’m about to open my corporate account. For it feels that at any moment I will be reprimanded and it will completely ruin my day. Specially on Tuesdays when we had this weekly meetings about status and progress.
I know the time to face my problem is getting nearer and nearer and I have no other option but to face them head on.
Is there a safety helmet designed for such “incidents”? I need a hard one, I’m afraid for my life.
Slingshot Effect
This concept has been used for ages by those people that design spaceships. Instead of burning fuel to reach a destination let’s say another planet, they use a neat trick by making the probe (or whatever space ship) build momentum by circling another celestial body (like the moon) then because of whatever force will “slingshot” the ship to its destination, less fuel more efficient.
But this blog is not about physics or astronomy. This is about, just a piece of my thinking.
In the early days, like 7 years ago, I was like burning to get into a destination. With so much to prove and idealism to fuel those dreams, it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure out that I’ll get there, albeit worn out and jaded.
But, I did get there. Jaded. A little bit. Ok, more than a little bit.
And as a promise to myself, or to learn from the experience, I said “I would never do that again…”.
So passed the years that I’m just an Earth-bound satellite, never really excelling, just not high enough to escape Earth’s gravity.
And yet, I get tired of being mediocre all the time. I miss the challenge. I miss the fire.
I did not know when it started, but I’m actually accelerating. Will I let myself to get burnt out this time or will I use the slingshot effect? The latter is promising but I need a lot of math instead of just raw desires, and math in this case is strategy.
And today, I’m expecting a lot of bad news. Maybe I will get scolded, or embarrassed or ridiculed. I don’t know. I don’t really know. But this is the feeling that made me realize I’m stepping out of my comfort zone again. To take on new challenges. To take on new responsibilities. To breath a new meaning to this life.
For this renewed ties to myself I say, “Bon Voyage!”
Friday, February 11, 2011
The Dreams
1st Episode: The Taxi Ride
I was travelling by plane, when it landed I hop into a taxi. The taxi driver said that some routes are closed and we need to go the other way. He told me that I can borrow his bicycle so that I can go to my destination faster. I complied and carried some sort of package and cycle my way to my friend's house.
When I arrived at her place, she asked "Where is your bag? Did you get the plate number of the taxi?",that's when I realized that I did not take note of the number. I felt desperate and stupid because I left my things there. My friend texted my number as to our location and hoping that the taxi driver will deliver my things.
After some moment, the taxi arrived and the good samaritan driver returned my things. I felt relieved and woke up.
2nd Episode: Rain and Singing Cat
My friend invited me to her wedding anniversary. I was in a yellow shorts and white t-shirt and carried an extra yellow shirt. When I arrived at the place and tried to wear the yellow shirt I felt off and decided I should wear something more formal and decided to go back home and change.
On my way, heavy rains fell and I was soaked. I find shelter in a store with a transparent wall (I think it was glass/window shield). Another friend of mind mine with her boyfriend riding a jeepney, passes me by and upon seeing me laughed hard.
The rain stopped and I decided to just walk home since it is near. The "trisikad" driver tells told me to go to the other side of the road since they are not allowed to take passengers on where I was standing.
When I was about to sit on the "trisikad" I saw three (3) common pets yet are strange.
The first I recognized was a very fat cat sleeping. The next thing I notice is the puppy which is playing on the seats, the puppy looks like a stuffed toy and not real. The strangest of them all is the singing cat that has a body of a bee. "Hey Ya" is the song it is repeating as I remembered. Another strange thing about the cat is that its body can be folded like an envelop.
A man said that these pets are trained. Also they are being "lent" from somewhere and they teach them new tricks as to improve and add more to their skills.
I look up the sky, it was dark and full of brightly shining stars.
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