The Dreaded Tuesday Meetings

It's Tuesday once again.

I have a new reason why I hate Tuesdays as of late.
I've been included in this weekly meeting update about my project, it's not a bad thing though. However, I'm still not meshed into the project that all I know is just superficial things about it. I say it's not my fault, I'm not guided as to what nook or cranny to inspect. I'm just left there to rot on pdf files and more pdf files to read.

I'm dreading the idea of one day being thrown into the fire and will just stare them back with a blank teary eyed gaze.

I keep saying it's not my fault, "it's not my fault". I've asked them the roadmap and all I get is a delay because they're busy with work, and I know that there's a point in the future that I will be the delay they'll be concerned about.

I hope I'm not prophetic though, I don't want to be the cause of failure or be the failure for that matter. I want to be useful not an added weight into their already heavy workload. That's the reason I was hired, to lighten their loads.

It's still early to tell my fate, I still have a full six months, already five months, probationary period and there's a planned big activity next month that maybe will test my usefulness. Until then.

Nostradamus Effect

Hello busyness.
Next week's going to be hectic.

Ok, this is just for fun. I don't have, in any way, the ability to "see" the future. I'm just speculating on what may happen next week. Why specifically next week? Because next week is the start of something new.

Vision for Monday:
I have to go to the NBI office to get a renewal of my clearance (this is scheduled by the way). In the morning meeting with my part time job, we may discuss how I'm going to work now that my schedule has changed. The thing I'm most afraid of? If they will ask me what time will I commit to report to them. I just can't simply answer that, since I'm sure that this new job is not strictly a 9hrs (including lunch) job type and OTs are extremely frequent possibilities.

Speaking of my new job, I also need to pass my requirements and documents to the HR by this time.

Vision for Wednesday:
The start. The beginning. My 3rd job. C++. Ok maybe the first day is getting acquainted with the people, place, and the project. I have a maximum of 6 months probation period to prove to them my potential on this "C++" thing. I'm excited nonetheless, I like challenges, and if there is one thing I can say I'm good at, is accepting challenges and winning them (the more when this challenge involves my quality of life).

So Wednesday is the start.

Goodbye waking up late.
Goodbye to afternoon naps.
Goodbye 8 hrs sleep.