My Own Demons

No! This is not about supernatural beings. This is about the figurative kind of demons.

Ok, I just want to let this off my system and just move-on from it. Not so long time ago, I was this aspiring young (though I'm still young now, just not as young before) programmer working in a known software engineering company. It has always been a dream of mine to work in a software facility. And to be able to get accepted and work and have salary is enough to drive a young man with a dream to do his best.

But I guess I dreamed too long. I could have just awoken and saw the real world. But I didn't. Inception inspired? Not really.

Enough of dreams, the real thing is that I got carried away by emotions. Emotions that I should have kept at check at all times. Geeks err human as we are we let our emotions get the best of us. And now the tables are turned, I am on the position that I once hated.

All those hardwork, all those years of staying at company E and now a new guy is hired and they are on top of the career ladder ahead of me? Now it's me on that position at company N. I feel a little guilt not because I know someone is against me but because I, many years ago hated this person. Which is me, now.

For those like me whose questioning the capability (hate is just a strong word) of me (if there exists), just give me a chance. I will do my very best to prove myself that I am capable of doing what I sign-up for. Anyways if you find me really worthless, the team leads and or the manager can readily dispose me in a matter of less than 6 months, when I'm still under the probationary period.

Surprised?! Yes I have demons too! I'm not the best "goodest" person you know.