Disconcerted

Recently, I noticed that I behave rather differently. Erratic is not an apt description, disturbed maybe. But why? I don't even know myself a 100%. Maybe it's a combination of what or where I am now. It is on times like this that I like to self reflect on what I am doing with my life.

Family.
Same as always, or as lately. My sister's marriage did not last, and I dont know the complete details. It went bad I guess. I don't know what she will do  or her plans are, but I wanted her to be responsible, take a job and start her life over again (it's not like it has ended), she just need a fresh look at things.
My other sister's "live-in relationship" is a sad story to watch. If I have powers like the XMEN, (give me Wolverine's adamantium claws) and I will gladly rip every single tissue of this useless bastard living in our house. Who in their right mind, if you have a sick child (baby) would you still go to a concert and be merry all night? Shit!
The problem with my family is that I can't talk to them without going WW3. I have my opinions, and sometimes I just let it out and it may seem to them that I am high and mighty and doesnt care (I really care, but in a hierarchy that they don't know). Now, even if I really wanted to go ballistic on things at home and cause a stir, I decide to just stay plump.

Work.
I can describe work as one word for the past 2 weeks or so. IDLE. Slowly it spells I-Dull. It feels demeaning when people around you are doing something, learning, creating and you are there, just there.

Friends.
One of my considered bestfriends is getting married this few weeks. She will be leaping to the "real" life. I'm happy for her, she deserves to be happy and I know she is smart enough to know where she is going and with whom.

Maybe I am on an upcoming crossroad of my life. Bring it on!