If I will rate myself to what level of *success* I am right now I may have to say I am not anywhere near where I wanted to be (oowwh this will be another ranting).
And yes it was my decision to be back in Cebu.
And yes it was my decision to quit my part time job.
And yes it was my decision to not complete yet my practicum.
And yes it was my decision to (blah blah blah...)...
The universe is conspiring against me, it's like time is ticking away faster than I can make use of it. Like trying to hold on to sand, you just can't because it slips right through your hands, the more I grip, the faster it escapes.
Where did I get off my tracks? At what point did it happened? Or is this a cumulative result of the small bad decisions I made along the way? Maybe. Part of it I can blame because of health. I did some decisions because of health reasons. But having more time to relax - still I got sick, sicker than ever, when will I ever be given a break? I try earnestly to be as healthy as I can, not drinking, not smoking, not even partying- I choose to skip these activities to at least live a day not worrying if I'm too skinny or too fragile.
Is there redemption for me before this year ends? This year started off just right, no, this year started great! But now it will end with a whimper than with a bang!
I still hope not.
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