Plans for 2014

Here is my shortlist for 2014.

January -Since I bought a Lenovo laptop, I was given 3 tickets to a show in Resorts World showcasing Rico Blanco, Nina and Kyla. I am still thinking who I will invite since it is on a Thursday. Comes to worst I may just go alone.

I bought a groupon voucher for 10 sessions visit to Golds Gym. I have to try to stay fit and finally gain some muscle.

Then, I will be back in Cebu to celebrate Sinulog. I think it is more joyous than Christmas. I miss the beat, the crowd and the street dance. The outpouring devotion during the procession is just mind blowing. I need to get ready my camera.

February - 2 of my officemates planned a trip to Cebu. But at the current rate I highly doubt it will push through though. They are just not driven to plan and to agree on what we'll do, where we'll stay. No plans, and I highly think they will just bail out when the time comes.

So, that is why Im planning for an alternative trip on that days. If they do bail out, I will just go to Siquijor and enjoy. Just have to invite othe people that can go with me.

March - I will again, hopefully, health-willing run another Run United 21k.

April - I bought a ticket back home to celebrate the Holy Week. However, I plan to take the rest of the week off (starting Monday of that holy week holidays). To where? I don't know yet, but it has to be in Luzon area so that I can go back immediately.

May - I have this lingering feeling to try Singapore once again. I have to. I will prepare myself as to what to do next, I hope that this is the step to the right direction and not another step backward.

All these I pray to the Lord God that He may always guide me and lead me to the right path and give me wisdom to decide on what the right thing to do.

The Holidays

Ok, honestly this post is not just about the holidays. This post are what the holidays makes me think and feel.

First, the holidays. Vacation. Free time away from work.
No, that for me. I have already consumed my leaves earlier.
So there goes my Christmas with my family.

For the second year in a row, I celebrated Christmas with Cecil Tizon. She is kind enough to stay than to go with her housemate's province where she has been invited. I truly thank her for that. We had it simple, pre-Christmas dinner and watch movies until 12 midnight. I didn't even see some fireworks because I just stayed indoors and watch the movie. After which we exchanged gifts and slept.

Not for me though. I was online and chatting with this officemate that is in love with our other officemate. Being the talker that I am, I stayed all night chatting with him talking about what went wrong, what could've done and what he still can do. I really hope she gets the girl.

So that is pretty much what went during Christmas.

Secondly, I had a really bad case of depression. Three of my highschool friends got babies! Two of them are my closest friends until now. Why? Because suddenly it dawned to me that these people are moving on with their lives. They are changing phase. They are becoming parents. I want to become a parent! I want y own child. I want to see my own little version (or my partner's).

But Im in a no relationship state.

Which made me think, Am I that undesirable? Am I that disgusting?

Am I not lovable?

To which the answers I'm not willing to know.

This is me being honest. I am not happy right now. I am happy for my friends. I am happy for the children, this is their time of the year, opening gifts and presents. But me? Im not.