Trapped

This feeling, I felt this before. More than once I remember. This uneasyness, this anxiety. This envy.

I wanted to see the world, I want to go to places, see them, experience them. Instead Im here surfing them, imagining what it would be like to be in Europe, to be in Australia, to be in South America.

I wanted to be a world class mobile developer, yet I dont even know how to code Android.

I wanted to be great, yet I feel mediocre.

It's depressing, not to be moving forward. Im stuck in here, in this phase, in this stage. Can anyone pull me out? Can anyone help me? Can anyone comfort me?

Maybe this feeling will pass, and once again I'll be numb, unfeeling, uncaring.

Good times be back, better times be near, great times be here.

I need to reinvent myself, teach myself to become better, love myself more, trust in the Lord that all these would make me the person He wants me to be. Please don't be weak, persevere. Self.

Rainy Days

It has been raining nonstop this past few days. Seeing the satellite images you can see 3 typhoons are swirling across the Pacific pulling the monsoon "habagat" rains inland.

I dont hate rainy days, though it makes it hard to go outside because you can get wet from passing-by cars, it is a welcome break from this tropical humid weather of ours. I can sleep well at night and unfortunately during the day too. Take for example today, I called in sick because Im bed-bound.

The summer days are over and the flood ridden days are here.

Looking forward to next week's holiday (July 17th) and next month's vacation in Thailand to be wet free.