Nothing to write about.
There is no "lust" this summer.
Friday, May 31, 2013
The Last of May
Goodbye 5th month! It is like we just met yesterday but really its been 31 days already.
Many years back I love May! It is to say my most favorite of all the months. It is the summer month. Fiesta month. Holiday. No classes, no worries. Sunny in the mornings, rainy in the afternoons. Perfect for dancing and playing in the rain. That was years back.
Well, May is still like that, only that I don't enjoy it that much now. Work has no holidays. You can file a "leave" but that's basically it. One thing though is the company summer outing or team building which roughly always coincides in the month of May. That's the one day (or 2) that you can be crazy as a kid and play your hearts out.
The end of May signals the end of summer (though with climate change I really dont know when is when...). It rains almost everyday. It is increasingly becoming difficult to wake up early in the morning because of the cool breeze. My jogs are disrupted because of the rain.
With the end of May, also comes the almost end of the 1st half of the year.
It is on times like this I like to reflect, what have I done? What will I do? What needs to be done, etc,...
At this moment, the obvious answer is to get back to work!
Many years back I love May! It is to say my most favorite of all the months. It is the summer month. Fiesta month. Holiday. No classes, no worries. Sunny in the mornings, rainy in the afternoons. Perfect for dancing and playing in the rain. That was years back.
Well, May is still like that, only that I don't enjoy it that much now. Work has no holidays. You can file a "leave" but that's basically it. One thing though is the company summer outing or team building which roughly always coincides in the month of May. That's the one day (or 2) that you can be crazy as a kid and play your hearts out.
The end of May signals the end of summer (though with climate change I really dont know when is when...). It rains almost everyday. It is increasingly becoming difficult to wake up early in the morning because of the cool breeze. My jogs are disrupted because of the rain.
With the end of May, also comes the almost end of the 1st half of the year.
It is on times like this I like to reflect, what have I done? What will I do? What needs to be done, etc,...
At this moment, the obvious answer is to get back to work!
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
Without You
Do you want me to let go
Leave the things between me and you
Forget the things that made us happy in the past
You now say it is over
You and I beyond repair
Leave this place that made us happy in the past
How can I live when you're gone
How can I breathe when you're the air that I breathe
I always thought that you and me means forever
How can I live
Without you
Even now you're gone
Im still hoping and Im praying
That you'll come back and re-live again our past
Will you realize
That Im the one you are destined
Others are trying what we have back in the past
How can I live when you're gone
How can I breathe when you're the air that I breathe
I always thought that you and me means forever
How can I live
Without you
Day and day Im imagining
You and me once again
You back here in my arms
And whispering my name
Did you hear my wish
Its a simple truthful wish
That you and me will be together again
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ufqbtwBSEis
Monday, May 20, 2013
Still Unknown
Chorus:
Love not meant to last forever
Throw it all away now
Hold on to something that is not true
And risk your only heart in thorns
It may be hard to find another
Worth your time and your love
But can you last when everything is wrong
Thrown away and yourself is doomed
Verse 1:
You found that the person you love
Is faking, not really in love
Just when you are ready to give
All the love and care they need
Repeat Chorus:
Verse 2:
Maybe it is hard to accept
You were fooled, lead to be believe
But then you dont go running for them
They dont deserve your love at all
Repeat Chorus (slow)
Repeat 1st stanza of chorus only.
You'll find the one and it will be so soon
Dont chase the loser, just be strong
You'll be happier, it will be very soon
Just wait for that someone still unknown
This is the melody: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UB6uQPV57V0
Love not meant to last forever
Throw it all away now
Hold on to something that is not true
And risk your only heart in thorns
It may be hard to find another
Worth your time and your love
But can you last when everything is wrong
Thrown away and yourself is doomed
Verse 1:
You found that the person you love
Is faking, not really in love
Just when you are ready to give
All the love and care they need
Repeat Chorus:
Verse 2:
Maybe it is hard to accept
You were fooled, lead to be believe
But then you dont go running for them
They dont deserve your love at all
Repeat Chorus (slow)
Repeat 1st stanza of chorus only.
You'll find the one and it will be so soon
Dont chase the loser, just be strong
You'll be happier, it will be very soon
Just wait for that someone still unknown
This is the melody: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UB6uQPV57V0
Saturday, May 18, 2013
The Story So Far
Last year, August of 2012 I returned in Metro Manila (QC) after failing to look for a job in SG. It was a sad day for me. Sad because my SG dreams just crumbled. My dreams of Bali and some other "high-end" tours vanished. Most especially, I left my friends, who are working there already. I am back to where I was 4 years prior. It was like taking 2 steps backward.
Fast forward to 9 months to today May 2013 and Im glad that Im back at my feet. I don't have that heavy feeling of not being successful in SG. Though honestly, it still lingers on my mind - what if. On the bright side, the job I got in QC is decent and currently on the upswing. Most people there are young, fresh graduates from college with bright eyed enthusiasm to prove their worth. It is a dynamic place to work. I'm glad to meet new people, this time though the roles are inverted, I am their "older" bro. Im used to being the youngest in the group, now Im the oldest. Time really flies but Im not complaining, it is just the natural coarse of life.
Im so looking forward to what's still in store for 2013, it is just the first half of the year, so much more is still going to happen. Here's to the good times, let's make it the best of times!
Fast forward to 9 months to today May 2013 and Im glad that Im back at my feet. I don't have that heavy feeling of not being successful in SG. Though honestly, it still lingers on my mind - what if. On the bright side, the job I got in QC is decent and currently on the upswing. Most people there are young, fresh graduates from college with bright eyed enthusiasm to prove their worth. It is a dynamic place to work. I'm glad to meet new people, this time though the roles are inverted, I am their "older" bro. Im used to being the youngest in the group, now Im the oldest. Time really flies but Im not complaining, it is just the natural coarse of life.
Im so looking forward to what's still in store for 2013, it is just the first half of the year, so much more is still going to happen. Here's to the good times, let's make it the best of times!
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Holding On
In my eyes the world is moving
At a pace that's not unnerving
Slow and steady
Life, wait Im not ready
Then as we move along
Months and years not so long
Im catching my breath
Time became a threat
For who could beat father time?
It's constant, doesn't stop
Doesn't slow down and not mine
All I can do is but whine
Tried to grip it
Hold it and keep it
But it slip like sands
Water in your hands
So all I have are memories
From the past activities
Can play it again and again
In my brain that is full of pain
In my heart I can feel happiness
Whenever someone gets near
Take away my loneliness
Time let me not be in fear
Nostalgia. Five Years Ago
Year: 2008. It's still a very vivid memory of mine. The very first time I arrived here in Manila to work. I really didn't know the place. It was such an adventure. Everything was new, everyone was new. The tall buildings in Ortigas amazed me. The seemingly endless hordes of people at the malls, which I only experienced in Cebu during Sinulog, astound me. Speaking the language I only hear on TV and on one subject embarrassed me, not because I don't want to speak it but because Im not used speaking it and hearing myself speaking it.
I've met many people and staying here in Manila widened my horizons. It made me appreciate Cebu more for its cleaner air, and simpler day to day flow of life. It made me realize how important family is, since I dont have any here.
Then I went back to Cebu, and 4 years later Im back here in Manila.
This dynamic city changed. Though Im not in the same city as before (Mandaluyong/Pasig cities then, Quezon city now) I can feel that 4 years gone is already a long time, and there have been many notable changes. The MRT has degraded, before it has this beautifully recorded female voice that says what station you are currently in. Now, it is but gone and replaced with whomever is at the driver seat (I guess) with coughs and mispronunciations of the station name.
More buildings are obscuring the horizon (whatever is left of it). More and more people are here, I guess.
Now 2013. As I ponder on these, I suddenly felt that time is running fast. Before I just want to stand still but now I want to run as fast as time, before time changes everything again.
I've met many people and staying here in Manila widened my horizons. It made me appreciate Cebu more for its cleaner air, and simpler day to day flow of life. It made me realize how important family is, since I dont have any here.
Then I went back to Cebu, and 4 years later Im back here in Manila.
This dynamic city changed. Though Im not in the same city as before (Mandaluyong/Pasig cities then, Quezon city now) I can feel that 4 years gone is already a long time, and there have been many notable changes. The MRT has degraded, before it has this beautifully recorded female voice that says what station you are currently in. Now, it is but gone and replaced with whomever is at the driver seat (I guess) with coughs and mispronunciations of the station name.
More buildings are obscuring the horizon (whatever is left of it). More and more people are here, I guess.
Now 2013. As I ponder on these, I suddenly felt that time is running fast. Before I just want to stand still but now I want to run as fast as time, before time changes everything again.
Sunday, May 12, 2013
The Hopeless
Saddest thing is that I lost hope
I thought when the right time comes again
And I feel that this is the right time
It would be much easier
Because of all the past experience
I thought that this time will be a breeze
Never had I been more wrong
I forgot to factor one important thing
Time passes and heals
With it, along with it, a part of ourselves
With it, along with it, our dreams and ideals
I opened my heart, and it breathe fresh air
It looked around and there it saw you
Then for the first time since the longest it has been denied
It beat, and it beats for you
Only to realize that this is not meant to be
This will never be
And so it broke but not into pieces
As I previously thought
It ached for a while
For an unrequited feeling is but one way
The hurt cannot be displayed
For there is no reason for it to be shown
Even though this is hopeless and unproductive
There is that little voice that say, try
But its clear now that no matter what I'll do
Your feelings for me wont change anew
For in your eyes I do not exist
And there is nothing worth waiting to happen
All I can do is move on
Move away from this feelings for you
I thought when the right time comes again
And I feel that this is the right time
It would be much easier
Because of all the past experience
I thought that this time will be a breeze
Never had I been more wrong
I forgot to factor one important thing
Time passes and heals
With it, along with it, a part of ourselves
With it, along with it, our dreams and ideals
I opened my heart, and it breathe fresh air
It looked around and there it saw you
Then for the first time since the longest it has been denied
It beat, and it beats for you
Only to realize that this is not meant to be
This will never be
And so it broke but not into pieces
As I previously thought
It ached for a while
For an unrequited feeling is but one way
The hurt cannot be displayed
For there is no reason for it to be shown
Even though this is hopeless and unproductive
There is that little voice that say, try
But its clear now that no matter what I'll do
Your feelings for me wont change anew
For in your eyes I do not exist
And there is nothing worth waiting to happen
All I can do is move on
Move away from this feelings for you
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