This is the last week of November and we are quickly moving towards the end of 2011. 2011, the year I got my groove (programming kind) back. This is not yet my end-of-year blog, I still got a month for that.
Our company's Christmas party will be held at Oakridge hotel, and it is Vegas themed. It will be next Sunday, yup December 4. I need to buy at least a polo shirt for the occasion as a quick inventory of my shirts all deemed them not suitable for party wear.
I also need to cut short (or go skinhead) but maybe just a super short cut because Im not confident carrying my head without a little bit of hair.
Anyways, December is just around the corner, Im excited for this party and whether I got a chance at winning the 2 million pesos.
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Ten Years Matters
Last night was a revelation. I think in my drunken state I get to act moves that the typically sober me won't ever do. Thankfully, Im not (yet) on the sexually maniac mode, just liberal with flirtations. It also helps that the group Im with is not that kind of people, and I was not brought up with weak morals that brittles at the slightest provocation.
Im not in a relationship and it has been a long time since I've been in one. When I see couples, especially those on their early twenties, Im jaded and thinks that they will not last. Im not going to hide it but Im saying goodbye to twenties next year so Im still allowed "technically" to act young and stupid.
I'm not a fan of alcohol, but through the years I learned to handle it and I guess Im a success story (so far). Whenever Im drunk, I can still access my reasoning (albeit in a limited capacity) and it never occured to me yet to have blacked out totally and do super stupid things with only my primal instincts in control.
To be quick and precise.
I got drunk -> flirted with someone who have a bf, and someone very young -> being warm about it.
Flirting as described here is super let us say PG 13 but I think it is not how severe it was but the fact that you did something which may have a different effect if other factors may have been different, and the feeling that it was ok, knowing that you would not feel ok if it happened to let us say your younger sister or niece.
In the morning when things are a bit clearer and the world is much brighter, we got to chitchat a little. How young are you? 20. God I felt old and with the pulsating pain of my head, resulting from drinking mixed alcohol, it seemed that time flew away under my feet (in perspective of going out/partying/love life). I felt too old to do these things.
Hahahah, in reality though I feel young (and I still am), just dont throw the age reality because I was born on 1982. 10 yrs, accurately 9 yrs, wow these people were born when I was in grade 3!
The lesson from this encounter is to live life to the fullest because time does not wait for anyone it just goes and will never come back again. Also to take it slow on alcohol consumption because health is wealth and it is better to be on the healthier side of things.
Im not in a relationship and it has been a long time since I've been in one. When I see couples, especially those on their early twenties, Im jaded and thinks that they will not last. Im not going to hide it but Im saying goodbye to twenties next year so Im still allowed "technically" to act young and stupid.
I'm not a fan of alcohol, but through the years I learned to handle it and I guess Im a success story (so far). Whenever Im drunk, I can still access my reasoning (albeit in a limited capacity) and it never occured to me yet to have blacked out totally and do super stupid things with only my primal instincts in control.
To be quick and precise.
I got drunk -> flirted with someone who have a bf, and someone very young -> being warm about it.
Flirting as described here is super let us say PG 13 but I think it is not how severe it was but the fact that you did something which may have a different effect if other factors may have been different, and the feeling that it was ok, knowing that you would not feel ok if it happened to let us say your younger sister or niece.
In the morning when things are a bit clearer and the world is much brighter, we got to chitchat a little. How young are you? 20. God I felt old and with the pulsating pain of my head, resulting from drinking mixed alcohol, it seemed that time flew away under my feet (in perspective of going out/partying/love life). I felt too old to do these things.
Hahahah, in reality though I feel young (and I still am), just dont throw the age reality because I was born on 1982. 10 yrs, accurately 9 yrs, wow these people were born when I was in grade 3!
The lesson from this encounter is to live life to the fullest because time does not wait for anyone it just goes and will never come back again. Also to take it slow on alcohol consumption because health is wealth and it is better to be on the healthier side of things.
Monday, November 21, 2011
Cathedral Windows
This is not about the dessert. This is about the church. Cebu City Cathedral to be precise.
It's already been more than a year since I started to go to church at the Cathedral. Before, I go to church at Sto. Rosario, 3pm time celebrated by father Butch. I can't remember why I decided to shift churches, or why the Cathedral and why the 9:30am mass. It's one of those things you just don't worry and it gets into your system and starts a cycle.
So every Sunday I go to the Cathedral to hear mass. For more than a year I got to observe people that keep that schedule and sits approximately close to where I sit.
I applaud the whole family that goes to church every Sunday. It really is a wonderful sight when you see the whole family bonding or just being together at church. That's one thing I did not experienced I guess. When I was young, I can remember my grandparents bringing me to church. When I was a teenager I go to church with my siblings and cousins. When I had a relationship, I go with her. Now, I go by myself. I remember a gospel that says when at least two (2) people is gathered for HIS name, HE will listen. I guess I have to find that one person to go to church with.
Then there are those that go to church with dates. The typical "in-a-relationship" status, you have to be with your special someone on this Sunday. Putting God in your relationship is essential, if it's what inside the minds of those BF/GF going to church.
Of course there are those singles who goes to church with themselves (me included). Nothing much to say to them (us) because these people just want to listen and reflect to the words of God.
In the church I see babies, infants and those toddlers running, crying and playing inside the church. It doesn't bother me to see them busy with play, come on they don't even understand their parents yet much more the echoed sermons of the priest. It is refreshing to see children play innocently and just having the time of their life, enjoying and not caring what's around them.
I'm praying that the Lord will continue to bless me and my family and friends and His will be done.
It's already been more than a year since I started to go to church at the Cathedral. Before, I go to church at Sto. Rosario, 3pm time celebrated by father Butch. I can't remember why I decided to shift churches, or why the Cathedral and why the 9:30am mass. It's one of those things you just don't worry and it gets into your system and starts a cycle.
So every Sunday I go to the Cathedral to hear mass. For more than a year I got to observe people that keep that schedule and sits approximately close to where I sit.
I applaud the whole family that goes to church every Sunday. It really is a wonderful sight when you see the whole family bonding or just being together at church. That's one thing I did not experienced I guess. When I was young, I can remember my grandparents bringing me to church. When I was a teenager I go to church with my siblings and cousins. When I had a relationship, I go with her. Now, I go by myself. I remember a gospel that says when at least two (2) people is gathered for HIS name, HE will listen. I guess I have to find that one person to go to church with.
Then there are those that go to church with dates. The typical "in-a-relationship" status, you have to be with your special someone on this Sunday. Putting God in your relationship is essential, if it's what inside the minds of those BF/GF going to church.
Of course there are those singles who goes to church with themselves (me included). Nothing much to say to them (us) because these people just want to listen and reflect to the words of God.
In the church I see babies, infants and those toddlers running, crying and playing inside the church. It doesn't bother me to see them busy with play, come on they don't even understand their parents yet much more the echoed sermons of the priest. It is refreshing to see children play innocently and just having the time of their life, enjoying and not caring what's around them.
I'm praying that the Lord will continue to bless me and my family and friends and His will be done.
Sunday, November 20, 2011
The Health Plan
I've been planning this a long time ago, but things happen - mostly money problems that sidestep this plan. Currently, it seems that I can finally get this plan into action.
So what's this plan Im talking about? I call this my health plan. See, Im not the health buff, or a healthy looking person at least - so my goal is to become active in achieving a healthy lifestyle.
I have a list of what I should (or try to) do, and this is not in any particular order.
One is to have a general checkup. I mean from head to foot. I want to know if there is something wrong somewhere in my body. I dont want to get caught off guard.
About 3 months ago, I felt this pointy sharp sensation on my stomach, fortunately after some ultrasound (my very 1st) nothing was found. I even found out that my kidneys are doing ok, a BIG relief since I always thought Im going to die of renal failure because it is so prevalent in our family.
Another on my list is to see the dentist. I know Im not on the healthier side of oral health. It is really a hassle when talking to someone and you know they can smell your breath. I dont even like the smell. Im just afraid to go to the dentist because I know they like recommend to extract 5 teeth and do all those "necessary" procedures on my mouth. Aside from the financial burden, there is also that embarassment factor.
Dermatologist, I know what your thinking - skin care! Though I wont deny I want to have good skin - who doesnt? - my primary purpose for seeing the doctor of skin and hair is to have this "extra" skin growing on my waist checked. It was barely visible and non sensitive before but recently I noticed that it becomes itchy. Another reason is to check my scalp, as I have been losing my follicles fast lately, I just want to know if this is the genes or an infection of sorts.
Lastly, but not the least is I plan to go back to the gym. Vanity aside, I want to have a defined body that looks far from fragile. The reason Im not yet enrolled is because of the cost. I always reason to myself that I can always exercise at home or run, and I can use the cash in eating. However the home exercise plans always ends up me getting asleep and the running is dependent on uncontrollable and erratic weather.
Ahh, another one comes to mind, eating healthy! I mean fruit and vegetables at least one meal per day. But buying a fruit except for banana is a hassle and expensive and green leafy things are very hard to safekeep. Reasons, I know.
So all (or ar least some of) those things I would like to start before this year comes to a close.
Money, where have you gone?
So what's this plan Im talking about? I call this my health plan. See, Im not the health buff, or a healthy looking person at least - so my goal is to become active in achieving a healthy lifestyle.
I have a list of what I should (or try to) do, and this is not in any particular order.
One is to have a general checkup. I mean from head to foot. I want to know if there is something wrong somewhere in my body. I dont want to get caught off guard.
About 3 months ago, I felt this pointy sharp sensation on my stomach, fortunately after some ultrasound (my very 1st) nothing was found. I even found out that my kidneys are doing ok, a BIG relief since I always thought Im going to die of renal failure because it is so prevalent in our family.
Another on my list is to see the dentist. I know Im not on the healthier side of oral health. It is really a hassle when talking to someone and you know they can smell your breath. I dont even like the smell. Im just afraid to go to the dentist because I know they like recommend to extract 5 teeth and do all those "necessary" procedures on my mouth. Aside from the financial burden, there is also that embarassment factor.
Dermatologist, I know what your thinking - skin care! Though I wont deny I want to have good skin - who doesnt? - my primary purpose for seeing the doctor of skin and hair is to have this "extra" skin growing on my waist checked. It was barely visible and non sensitive before but recently I noticed that it becomes itchy. Another reason is to check my scalp, as I have been losing my follicles fast lately, I just want to know if this is the genes or an infection of sorts.
Lastly, but not the least is I plan to go back to the gym. Vanity aside, I want to have a defined body that looks far from fragile. The reason Im not yet enrolled is because of the cost. I always reason to myself that I can always exercise at home or run, and I can use the cash in eating. However the home exercise plans always ends up me getting asleep and the running is dependent on uncontrollable and erratic weather.
Ahh, another one comes to mind, eating healthy! I mean fruit and vegetables at least one meal per day. But buying a fruit except for banana is a hassle and expensive and green leafy things are very hard to safekeep. Reasons, I know.
So all (or ar least some of) those things I would like to start before this year comes to a close.
Money, where have you gone?
Thursday, November 10, 2011
The Blessings
Expectations, is one of the things I left behind because I don't want to be disappointed. In doing so I often set the bar low so that I can claim small victories. This is not bad per se but doing so makes me just ordinary and typical.
I often look at myself with prejudice. I really don't think of me being great at anything. If you heard me 'brag' it's either I'm joking or I'm pushed to saying those things because I need to protect myself or is in a group high praising ourselves for entertainment.
Im not rich. Im not 'that' smart. Im just typical. I work because I have to. I don't have my own company because Im not enterpreneurial. Im not in a committed relationship because even I decided Im not fit to be in one.
Im just being still and stale.
However, God still gives me surprises! And Im not complaining. Thank you God for always guiding me to the right way. Im always asking for your mercy and forgiveness, and the wisdom so that I can give more weight to what really is important. It's uplifting to know that even the unrelegious me, God still blesses me, believes in me.
From the words of Paulo Coelho, "enjoy your success, you deserve it" I'm quite enjoying the moment. Im happy and driven to do the things I like to do. What more can I ask? Still a lot, but Im taking my time and taking that one step at a time.
I often look at myself with prejudice. I really don't think of me being great at anything. If you heard me 'brag' it's either I'm joking or I'm pushed to saying those things because I need to protect myself or is in a group high praising ourselves for entertainment.
Im not rich. Im not 'that' smart. Im just typical. I work because I have to. I don't have my own company because Im not enterpreneurial. Im not in a committed relationship because even I decided Im not fit to be in one.
Im just being still and stale.
However, God still gives me surprises! And Im not complaining. Thank you God for always guiding me to the right way. Im always asking for your mercy and forgiveness, and the wisdom so that I can give more weight to what really is important. It's uplifting to know that even the unrelegious me, God still blesses me, believes in me.
From the words of Paulo Coelho, "enjoy your success, you deserve it" I'm quite enjoying the moment. Im happy and driven to do the things I like to do. What more can I ask? Still a lot, but Im taking my time and taking that one step at a time.
Thursday, November 03, 2011
The Mean Mail
Sometimes I'm mean. And sometimes I like to be mean - shhh, that's a secret.
One sure thing that irks me the most is when someone is being lazy at what they are supposed to and paid to do. What I can assure though is that years of experience has made me think a thousand times before reacting and instead divert my energies to thinking of 'creative' ways to unleash my upset emotions. It's not that I don't make mistakes, I do, but this is supposedly a work environment and we should present ourselves to look united to people outside our organization. It's not you against me - it is us working together to build something worth paying. Consider this a lesson, young person!
It really is not that big deal, and I'm just looking for a bit of spice on this rather plain office environment. I kind of miss the tension. So here's the deal: an email sent telling me that I'm confusing 'you' about the progress of this requirement. Of course it is confusing! It's not like we are learning ABC's. My one cent is you should have at least tried to read it thrice before pressing that 'send' email button.
There are many emails sent, it's part of your job to cut across the clutter and ignore the things that are not essential to you. You're young but it doesn't mean you can just cry foul over lots of emails - which are 'progress' emails.
Now to cut you some slack since you had a hard time reading emails I had this blog for the 'read between the lines' I replied, just in case you got 'confused'.
Me saying: "My apologies for the lots of emails regarding the progress of this RFQ which you find hard to comprehend."
What I really wanted to say: "Bullshit! read-reread, read! You son-of-a-b*tch!"
Me saying: "As clearly stated in the previous email regarding the status of the machines."
What I really wanted to say: "Do you know how to read? Or are you just challenged, mentally?"
So there goes.
To my officemate(s) who might read this: I'm just tired and sick and not my jolly self tonight. Don't take this too seriously.
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